the year of 2008 is doing its last call. and 2009 is calling us to wake up.
my 2008 was a year of hard work and nothing else more than that. let's do a quick reflection of what i did.
in term of my career wise, i had a freakin big progression. whatever i'm required to do. it's not because i wanted it to move as fast. but the feeling is like my job required me to move as fast as it progresses itself. i'm some sort like forced to follow the progression as fast as i could while i have to drag people that's behind me to move as fast as possible. in this career year, i may have made people unhappy with my words. here i would like to say sorry. i got no choice. i'm making progression for the company for the family. i have to move that fast i have to drag you guys along. i believe my accomplishment is very significant to the family business i hope the accomplishment could expand to a larger significance to the family business.
in term of my personal life.. yes like alot of people would say.. i'm crazy. in this year i took up so many extreme sports. but it's not that extreme until like those idiots in whacked out sports on AXN. i took up diving, i dived seriously and got all my gear, breaking my bank account for it. and then i also took up rock climbing. yes also breaking my bank accout getting gears for it. and other than that... my driving is progressing as well. and my car needs so many fixes that i have no idea how to calculate it anymore. that's even larger bank account to break. and my consumption of petrol and tires is amazing considering how i'm pushing my car.
my other personal life, as you can read over my blog.. which is for this whole year... it's like a story. 2 deja Vu. and one recovery. that's but nothing is progressing. i'm still myself, although i would love to have someone to accompany me... for someone i might even be a laughing stock for getting myself into puddle of mud again and again. i believe just no luck... plain no luck even play mahjong people see my tiles also say can die.
i didn't mention anything about my family right ? yeah... nothing is changed as well. just that i've been really caught up with work until when i go home i just head to my room.. switch on musics, chat online, read some books and relax getting ready to sleep. that's about it. nothing much.
that's my 2008. summarized in just less than a page. so un cool. i would really wish that my 2009 is better. but looking at the condition of the economy, i don't know how my career would progress how the business would grow. if i'm able to get my Lexus IS 250 :P
Wednesday, December 31, 2008
Monday, December 29, 2008
Déjà vu
Déjà vu (pronounced /ˈdeɪʒɑː ˈvuː/ (help·info); French /deʒa vy/ (help·info) "already seen"; also called paramnesia, from Greek παρα "para," "near" + μνήμη "mnēmē," "memory") or promnesia, is the experience of feeling sure that one has witnessed or experienced a new situation previously (an individual feels as though an event has already happened or has happened in the near past). The term was coined by a French psychic researcher, Émile Boirac (1851–1917) in his book "L'Avenir des sciences psychiques" ("The Future of Psychic Sciences"), which expanded upon an essay he wrote while an undergraduate. The experience of déjà vu is usually accompanied by a compelling sense of familiarity, and also a sense of "eeriness," "strangeness," or "weirdness," The "previous" experience is most frequently attributed to real life, although in some cases there is a firm sense that the experience "genuinely happened" in the past.
this is a good word to describe probably what i'm going through.. Déjà vu ...
feels like i'm going through the same time... knowing that most probably it'll ended up like last time.. but yet... still going forward.... hoping this time could be different.
this is a good word to describe probably what i'm going through.. Déjà vu ...
feels like i'm going through the same time... knowing that most probably it'll ended up like last time.. but yet... still going forward.... hoping this time could be different.
interpretation
as an engineer, we get to choose what we want the process/things to work. and if it doesn't work, we get to correct it. keep correcting it until we get it right. that's called feedback.
but in an engineer's life there are things that we don't really get to have feedback or correct them. it's called interpretation of a situation. when we were in a situation, we have to interpret what will be our next move. but if we interpret it wrongly, it will definite affect us. and especially when we made some wrong decision or we interpret it wrongly, people will have perception judgement on us.
i'm in a situation where something is going to happen. but i really can't interpret it correctly. and i don't really have 100% confidence on my own interpretation. because i mentioned before last time that about someone listening to the heart. the heart is the closest connection to your fate. when you stop listening to them, they will stop telling you things about your fate. but previously i did listen but it seems like whatever happened seems so different from what my heart told me.
shall i listen to my heart once again? or whatever previously happened, it happened for a reason, to end a misery or suffering?
but in an engineer's life there are things that we don't really get to have feedback or correct them. it's called interpretation of a situation. when we were in a situation, we have to interpret what will be our next move. but if we interpret it wrongly, it will definite affect us. and especially when we made some wrong decision or we interpret it wrongly, people will have perception judgement on us.
i'm in a situation where something is going to happen. but i really can't interpret it correctly. and i don't really have 100% confidence on my own interpretation. because i mentioned before last time that about someone listening to the heart. the heart is the closest connection to your fate. when you stop listening to them, they will stop telling you things about your fate. but previously i did listen but it seems like whatever happened seems so different from what my heart told me.
shall i listen to my heart once again? or whatever previously happened, it happened for a reason, to end a misery or suffering?
Saturday, December 27, 2008
christmas again
at a blink of an eye... it's christmas again...somehow it sparks a little memory from my past days where christmas means alot to someone... somehow it's now back to my normal life where christmas is just another day of rest.
so what i did for my christmas eve ? yeah i went one U.. crazy ? some say jam like hell.. yeah it did jam like one kind but i wasn't there for any celebration, i went there for wall climbing.. it has been awhile since i last climb. so... climb climb climb... then finish around 10 plus.. grab a burger then head to eugene's shack for a party. and i got stuck between one utama car park and LDP took me 30 minutes to get out to LDP. just plenty alot of cars.
then it's just another year of celebration like previous year that we did at eugene's place. and on the christmas day.... ahahhaha climbing again :) i'm insane.. i'm hardcore.... yeah i'm climbing outdoor this round.. with some minor aching on my muscles... i'm climbing even harder than last night... so... i got home around 4 PM... and my whole body was like aching like mad...
head for a massage.... relief all my achiness and all the ergo problem that i built up in my office. then night time it's steamboat at my place. family gathering.. where all my relatives are here.. big party of people... i brought beer back home... nothing beats steamboat with icy cold beer.
then boxing day... dinner at Ozeki... my parents allow me to choose where to eat as they are treating a fren of theirs for a dinner.. so i choose ozeki. something not everyone tried before... it's just nice... even a MAS engineer that travels the world says he haven't eat such japanese food before.... cool stuff.. the bill came out to be 400 bucks for a party of 5. heavy for the pocket... i'm already pretty light in ordering the food... i excluded stone grill sirloin.. excluded wagyu beef.. :) just some simple yet delicious yet fusion dish... made everyone happy and full.
and that's about it.. :) so fast it's end of the year already... 2009 coming.. not sure what's interesting ahead for me.... hope it's good thing... as i've been a good boy for 2008 :)
so what i did for my christmas eve ? yeah i went one U.. crazy ? some say jam like hell.. yeah it did jam like one kind but i wasn't there for any celebration, i went there for wall climbing.. it has been awhile since i last climb. so... climb climb climb... then finish around 10 plus.. grab a burger then head to eugene's shack for a party. and i got stuck between one utama car park and LDP took me 30 minutes to get out to LDP. just plenty alot of cars.
then it's just another year of celebration like previous year that we did at eugene's place. and on the christmas day.... ahahhaha climbing again :) i'm insane.. i'm hardcore.... yeah i'm climbing outdoor this round.. with some minor aching on my muscles... i'm climbing even harder than last night... so... i got home around 4 PM... and my whole body was like aching like mad...
head for a massage.... relief all my achiness and all the ergo problem that i built up in my office. then night time it's steamboat at my place. family gathering.. where all my relatives are here.. big party of people... i brought beer back home... nothing beats steamboat with icy cold beer.
then boxing day... dinner at Ozeki... my parents allow me to choose where to eat as they are treating a fren of theirs for a dinner.. so i choose ozeki. something not everyone tried before... it's just nice... even a MAS engineer that travels the world says he haven't eat such japanese food before.... cool stuff.. the bill came out to be 400 bucks for a party of 5. heavy for the pocket... i'm already pretty light in ordering the food... i excluded stone grill sirloin.. excluded wagyu beef.. :) just some simple yet delicious yet fusion dish... made everyone happy and full.
and that's about it.. :) so fast it's end of the year already... 2009 coming.. not sure what's interesting ahead for me.... hope it's good thing... as i've been a good boy for 2008 :)
Sunday, December 21, 2008
Lexus IS 250 test drive
finally after so many reschedule of test drive of the Lexus IS 250, i get to drive it today.
compared to the UK spec Naza imported Lexus IS 250, this one is a full luxury spec. the difference is Mark Levinson audio, memory seat, electronic steering adjustment.
start the engine like normal.. depress the brake and press the start button...the steering feels so blardy light....so easy to drive... the accelleration is not instantaneous like 3 series or C class. it gives gradual power... very smooth engine.. very smooth gear box... 6 speed auto... barely feel any gear change.
only one turn off.... when the car is running at low speed... it's bumpy.. it's even bumpier than my vios or camry... but at high speed.. the car is SUPER steady... considering it's a 17 inch.... not 16...
next year they are launching a basic model, which doesn't have the mark levinson audio, Bi-Xenon, memory seat, electric steering adjustment, headlamp cleaner, ventilated seats, calf leather instead of smooth aged leather. but the most attractive thing is that.. the price is speculating around 250 to 270K.. which is a whole 30 to 50K of reduction....
their best selling is GS series... intereting...
compared to the UK spec Naza imported Lexus IS 250, this one is a full luxury spec. the difference is Mark Levinson audio, memory seat, electronic steering adjustment.
start the engine like normal.. depress the brake and press the start button...the steering feels so blardy light....so easy to drive... the accelleration is not instantaneous like 3 series or C class. it gives gradual power... very smooth engine.. very smooth gear box... 6 speed auto... barely feel any gear change.
only one turn off.... when the car is running at low speed... it's bumpy.. it's even bumpier than my vios or camry... but at high speed.. the car is SUPER steady... considering it's a 17 inch.... not 16...
next year they are launching a basic model, which doesn't have the mark levinson audio, Bi-Xenon, memory seat, electric steering adjustment, headlamp cleaner, ventilated seats, calf leather instead of smooth aged leather. but the most attractive thing is that.. the price is speculating around 250 to 270K.. which is a whole 30 to 50K of reduction....
their best selling is GS series... intereting...
Tuesday, December 16, 2008
yet another eventful weekend
it's been yet another long time since i last updated this post.. as you all know i came back from taiwan. and i have hell alot of things to do... also i got order from my customer which is a really good thing at this economy down turn...
in this post... i'll emphasize on 4 thing which happened over the 2 weekend.
earlier the week before...
HPC track day !!!... it's been like 1 blardy year i haven't been pushing myself toward the limitation in driving fast... yes then now i managed to do it... with my own car... properly setup.... wider tires... rebuilt suspension... and it's pure adrenalin.... pure fun.... i'm running group 3 :) which is basically for expert group.. i have fun.. i didn't misbehave on track .... although there are some slower cars in there.. just have my own sweet time and fun time.... but i realise that my tires managed to last for 5 laps only.. before the tires reached maximum gripping temperature.... where i lose my grip over corners... that's how hard i'm pushing my car... :)
then the thing that happened over the this weekend
i was recomended by a friend of mine to be the instructor of HPC events. yes... instructor for driving on the Sepang F1 Circuit. to guide the begineers. and on saturday i had my instructor training...
1st thing in the morning.. i realised that my car's radiator hose broke... what a bad day to start... and i have to get off with a 400 bucks 2nd handed silicon hose. pain... then i managed to reach to the training ground.. slightly late as i have to dissemble my car and go grab the part in another car.. and go back home and install it... and head to the training ground.
the training was really awesome !!! some of those are basic.. but it's something that i haven't been realising i'm doing it.. so.. good training.. the highlight of the training... getting to drive in 2 very awesom car... Toyota Corolla LE... yeah blardy old car with god knows how many years of suspension in it. we all did trash the car on rain... making the car's rear wheel one side leaving the ground when cornering... the 2nd car is the HPC's Celica Track car. VERY AWESOME SHARP HANDLING... infact.. it's easier to drive than my car.. probably it's the lightweight that matters there... yes i get to do autocross on the cars IN RAIN... that's pure fun !... so end of the day.. i go home with a wheel punctured by a SCREW i pick up from the training ground. and knowing my car understeers ALOT.... so end of the day i have to spend 150 bucks to get my alignment done up correctly. hopefully i can perform better.
2nd interesting part
Quattro... yeah it sound like the Audi's Quatro technology which is 4WD... but this one is the club in down town KL. opposite KLCC... Avenue K. this round we started going into autumn bar... AGAIN... it's packed !!! so packed that can't stand.. can't walk... and they got a table at the walk way where everyone walking up and down.... so then all moved up to Winter Bar.... that's the highlight of the night. 10 degrees ambient temperature... cooling... smoke free....and there there's this another room called chill room.. sub zero...nice to hang there when the alcohol kicks in and the face gets red... :) gone home half drunk this round... probably i got tired from the training of driving...
3rd interesting part...
Genting autocross event... after a night in Quattro 10 degree.... the day in genting is 16 degrees when the wind blow... plus... it's raining.... so... blardy cold 2 days straight down. but then this autocross i wasn't rolled under competition class... i was left into a non-competition class.. although i dun have THAT much experience on autocross... there are alot of nice picture taken as well during this event... because they have one of the most happening car club i've ever seen... the mini club.. see how they decorate their car...it's really wicked !... so.. as the day goes... the mini finish their run...and my turn to have some fun.... with the new alignment settings.... i was having hell of a fun... my car is sharp... but a little understeer on low speed. but generally my car's control skill i realise it has significantly went up... and it's real fun.... accidently ... my time was 2nd fastest among the turbo cars... and i won myself car waxing voucher.... :) that's was a bonus of the day.... oh yeah.. did i mentioned i met Leona Chin ? at first i have no idea who's she...nor what she do... then i get to know.. she's the driver of Red Bull racing team for MME race. wow.. 22 year old drifter girl with pro driving license. and a cute little girl... holding a soft toy everywhere she goes...hahaha really doesn't make much sense as she's a pro driver :)
anyway.. this is a blardy long blog... weekend had ended... and time to get back to my work...time to deliver products to my customer... get back more money.. buy a new anti-roll bar for my car.... so that i dun get that much understeer. :)
in this post... i'll emphasize on 4 thing which happened over the 2 weekend.
earlier the week before...
HPC track day !!!... it's been like 1 blardy year i haven't been pushing myself toward the limitation in driving fast... yes then now i managed to do it... with my own car... properly setup.... wider tires... rebuilt suspension... and it's pure adrenalin.... pure fun.... i'm running group 3 :) which is basically for expert group.. i have fun.. i didn't misbehave on track .... although there are some slower cars in there.. just have my own sweet time and fun time.... but i realise that my tires managed to last for 5 laps only.. before the tires reached maximum gripping temperature.... where i lose my grip over corners... that's how hard i'm pushing my car... :)
then the thing that happened over the this weekend
i was recomended by a friend of mine to be the instructor of HPC events. yes... instructor for driving on the Sepang F1 Circuit. to guide the begineers. and on saturday i had my instructor training...
1st thing in the morning.. i realised that my car's radiator hose broke... what a bad day to start... and i have to get off with a 400 bucks 2nd handed silicon hose. pain... then i managed to reach to the training ground.. slightly late as i have to dissemble my car and go grab the part in another car.. and go back home and install it... and head to the training ground.
the training was really awesome !!! some of those are basic.. but it's something that i haven't been realising i'm doing it.. so.. good training.. the highlight of the training... getting to drive in 2 very awesom car... Toyota Corolla LE... yeah blardy old car with god knows how many years of suspension in it. we all did trash the car on rain... making the car's rear wheel one side leaving the ground when cornering... the 2nd car is the HPC's Celica Track car. VERY AWESOME SHARP HANDLING... infact.. it's easier to drive than my car.. probably it's the lightweight that matters there... yes i get to do autocross on the cars IN RAIN... that's pure fun !... so end of the day.. i go home with a wheel punctured by a SCREW i pick up from the training ground. and knowing my car understeers ALOT.... so end of the day i have to spend 150 bucks to get my alignment done up correctly. hopefully i can perform better.
2nd interesting part
Quattro... yeah it sound like the Audi's Quatro technology which is 4WD... but this one is the club in down town KL. opposite KLCC... Avenue K. this round we started going into autumn bar... AGAIN... it's packed !!! so packed that can't stand.. can't walk... and they got a table at the walk way where everyone walking up and down.... so then all moved up to Winter Bar.... that's the highlight of the night. 10 degrees ambient temperature... cooling... smoke free....and there there's this another room called chill room.. sub zero...nice to hang there when the alcohol kicks in and the face gets red... :) gone home half drunk this round... probably i got tired from the training of driving...
3rd interesting part...
Genting autocross event... after a night in Quattro 10 degree.... the day in genting is 16 degrees when the wind blow... plus... it's raining.... so... blardy cold 2 days straight down. but then this autocross i wasn't rolled under competition class... i was left into a non-competition class.. although i dun have THAT much experience on autocross... there are alot of nice picture taken as well during this event... because they have one of the most happening car club i've ever seen... the mini club.. see how they decorate their car...it's really wicked !... so.. as the day goes... the mini finish their run...and my turn to have some fun.... with the new alignment settings.... i was having hell of a fun... my car is sharp... but a little understeer on low speed. but generally my car's control skill i realise it has significantly went up... and it's real fun.... accidently ... my time was 2nd fastest among the turbo cars... and i won myself car waxing voucher.... :) that's was a bonus of the day.... oh yeah.. did i mentioned i met Leona Chin ? at first i have no idea who's she...nor what she do... then i get to know.. she's the driver of Red Bull racing team for MME race. wow.. 22 year old drifter girl with pro driving license. and a cute little girl... holding a soft toy everywhere she goes...hahaha really doesn't make much sense as she's a pro driver :)
anyway.. this is a blardy long blog... weekend had ended... and time to get back to my work...time to deliver products to my customer... get back more money.. buy a new anti-roll bar for my car.... so that i dun get that much understeer. :)
Thursday, November 27, 2008
chasing for something
this early morning... i just recovered from a very tiring day yesterday travelling upside down from one corner to the other corner serving customers, meeting suppliers to find out what i can do for the coming days....
and although i just recovered, but this morning i wake up. i'm asking myself what am i chasing? i use up my energy, my brain juice, my time, yeah i get a good deal in business, i get alot of compensation in return for my success. but what is the end in mind?
am i assuming that i will succeed? that's why i'm moving on with my new target? or just merely money and project success ain't enough for me?
what am i chasing for ?
and although i just recovered, but this morning i wake up. i'm asking myself what am i chasing? i use up my energy, my brain juice, my time, yeah i get a good deal in business, i get alot of compensation in return for my success. but what is the end in mind?
am i assuming that i will succeed? that's why i'm moving on with my new target? or just merely money and project success ain't enough for me?
what am i chasing for ?
Wednesday, November 26, 2008
ever more
the harder i work..
the more tired i get...
and the more tired i get...
the more i felt like i need someone to accompany me...
this is crap... make me feel so blardy weak whenever i stop working but yet a human's stamina is limited. can't be forever working..
just really need someone to help me recharge... just let me think of that someone will do...
who shall she be....
the more tired i get...
and the more tired i get...
the more i felt like i need someone to accompany me...
this is crap... make me feel so blardy weak whenever i stop working but yet a human's stamina is limited. can't be forever working..
just really need someone to help me recharge... just let me think of that someone will do...
who shall she be....
Sunday, November 23, 2008
compressed november
it's been quite sometime since i last blogged... yeah like the title.. comparessed november...which means my november barely allow me to breath through my days.
my previous post was training for a week.. that was part 1 of my training and just a blink of an eye... my 2nd part of my training is done as well.
somewhere at the end of october, i decided last minute that i have to go to Taiwan for my design review and alot of supplier visits and sourcings. so, from the day i paid my air ticket to the day i travel only 1 week for me to prepare everything.
10th of november i headed to Taiwan, yet again. this round i have to find my way down to Tainan as that's my 1st stop. 3 days in tainan, 2 days in taipei. very compressed trip. alot of supplier to visit, and daily is just eating and drinking. but after the drinking i still have to go back to my hotel and shower then continue with the design and next day to be reviewed by experienced manufacturers.
basically all my current suppliers were also saying that i planned my trip too tight and they wanted to spend some time bringing me around but yet i don't have the luxury. can u imagine when i was in taipei, i didn't get to step into a shopping mall at all...it was so hectic...
the reason is because when i returned from my trip, there's an important appointment at 5PM. so i can't delay my flight or add extra day. and following monday is my 2nd part of coaching training. and there goes another week... 1 week of travelling, 1 week of training.. i didn't get to rest at home... and the training is in a crappy hotel called Hotel De Palma in Ampang.
this is a place where i ate curry rice for 3 meals a day and 5 days straight down. terrible crap.... and the weekend is packed with gatherings... no voice for karaoke also... ahahahah
and then i'm busy preparing my car for the 30th november track event.... so compressed... so tiring.... tmrw my days will be back to normal...but i can expect the amount of things that i need to look into is pile up like mountain after 2 weeks of disappearance...
my previous post was training for a week.. that was part 1 of my training and just a blink of an eye... my 2nd part of my training is done as well.
somewhere at the end of october, i decided last minute that i have to go to Taiwan for my design review and alot of supplier visits and sourcings. so, from the day i paid my air ticket to the day i travel only 1 week for me to prepare everything.
10th of november i headed to Taiwan, yet again. this round i have to find my way down to Tainan as that's my 1st stop. 3 days in tainan, 2 days in taipei. very compressed trip. alot of supplier to visit, and daily is just eating and drinking. but after the drinking i still have to go back to my hotel and shower then continue with the design and next day to be reviewed by experienced manufacturers.
basically all my current suppliers were also saying that i planned my trip too tight and they wanted to spend some time bringing me around but yet i don't have the luxury. can u imagine when i was in taipei, i didn't get to step into a shopping mall at all...it was so hectic...
the reason is because when i returned from my trip, there's an important appointment at 5PM. so i can't delay my flight or add extra day. and following monday is my 2nd part of coaching training. and there goes another week... 1 week of travelling, 1 week of training.. i didn't get to rest at home... and the training is in a crappy hotel called Hotel De Palma in Ampang.
this is a place where i ate curry rice for 3 meals a day and 5 days straight down. terrible crap.... and the weekend is packed with gatherings... no voice for karaoke also... ahahahah
and then i'm busy preparing my car for the 30th november track event.... so compressed... so tiring.... tmrw my days will be back to normal...but i can expect the amount of things that i need to look into is pile up like mountain after 2 weeks of disappearance...
Monday, October 20, 2008
training done
for the past 1 whole week, i was in a training. a training that train coaches, qualify coaches. the main purpose of the training, i have no idea. someone just put my name there and ask me to attend. since it's paid for, i just went for it.
yes i get to stay in The Mines Hotel for 1 whole week there. all by myself in my own room with a freakin huge bed. it's not that my home i don't have all those, but just that this one week is the time i have my own privacy.... no one to nag, no one to question what i do etc etc etc.... i chill in the room, sleep early, go out come back late, no one cares..
the best thing is that, yes i do learn something new from the training. although most of it i learn from those times when i was in intel. but this one is developed by german. no one in the world had used the method of coaching before. but german people are the one that has been using that and proven success. and malaysia had started to use it.
another good thing is that, during the whole week. yeah.. get to know multiple friends from multiple industry, mainly from the beauty industry. and a certain older dudes from same industry. so it's really interesting. i even met someone that's from a very very odd industry considering she's a girl and she's not really old nor wierd looking. yeah an industry dealing with the deceased. 1st impression... scarry... geli... wierd.... all sort of mixed feelings. but then after couple of days talking to her, hanging out and such... interestingly... i can accept that :) it's just a profession afterall... nice person to talk to. but a person that has problems in her mind that at times need some wise people's guidance. but she tend to think, it's okay one she'll make it through that sort of simply move forward style without much considering and planning.
and now... i'm back to my own life. back to my job that's headache thinking how to proceed with my production while the oil supplier delayed my shipment of oils... my production had stopped for at least 3 weeks. really pain in the ass.
yes i get to stay in The Mines Hotel for 1 whole week there. all by myself in my own room with a freakin huge bed. it's not that my home i don't have all those, but just that this one week is the time i have my own privacy.... no one to nag, no one to question what i do etc etc etc.... i chill in the room, sleep early, go out come back late, no one cares..
the best thing is that, yes i do learn something new from the training. although most of it i learn from those times when i was in intel. but this one is developed by german. no one in the world had used the method of coaching before. but german people are the one that has been using that and proven success. and malaysia had started to use it.
another good thing is that, during the whole week. yeah.. get to know multiple friends from multiple industry, mainly from the beauty industry. and a certain older dudes from same industry. so it's really interesting. i even met someone that's from a very very odd industry considering she's a girl and she's not really old nor wierd looking. yeah an industry dealing with the deceased. 1st impression... scarry... geli... wierd.... all sort of mixed feelings. but then after couple of days talking to her, hanging out and such... interestingly... i can accept that :) it's just a profession afterall... nice person to talk to. but a person that has problems in her mind that at times need some wise people's guidance. but she tend to think, it's okay one she'll make it through that sort of simply move forward style without much considering and planning.
and now... i'm back to my own life. back to my job that's headache thinking how to proceed with my production while the oil supplier delayed my shipment of oils... my production had stopped for at least 3 weeks. really pain in the ass.
Monday, October 6, 2008
taste of the past
last week... it's raya week. yes we do have quite alot of holidays. this round the holiday seem to be 5 days long.
mine wasn't that long. just 2 days for me... i have to work actually on friday and saturday.
the other more interesting part is that my parents aren't around. they had gone to sydney to my sister's graduation ceremony. be back only like 8 days later... they left KL since monday evening.
so leaving me, my brother, the maid and the house.... so.. it's totally mayhem but yet freedom.... so.. without parents around.. very normal where all of me and my brother will be disppearing.... gone out with frens, come back late...
for me... this week is a week that full of spices.... happy, disappointed, tired, gladful... etc etc etc.... i went for alot of group gatherings, playing with dogs, fun drive around places, clubbings, BBQ, parties... yum cha.... and movies... so many things
everynight also got home around 12 or at times got home around 2 AM...
luckly i was fit enough to deal with these kind of lifestyle as i've gained alot of health during my months and months of training in the gym.... some describe me as social butterfly.... :) alot of things happening in this week.
i name this post as taste of past is because i used to stay alone while i'm working in penang. so i used to have alot of freedom.. back in those days... i didn't have that much of activities.. but mostly at home resting watching some show, cleaning up... ironing clothes... i supposed to be playing my piano over the holidays to relax and chill myself.. but that didn't happen... too many plans.... so little time at home... no one to blame.. but myself... i can't stay still nowadays... not this week. maybe some other times.
and the freedom week is going to end... parents coming back.... back to the days where people will ask where are u goin out... what time coming back.... and nagging here and there.
mine wasn't that long. just 2 days for me... i have to work actually on friday and saturday.
the other more interesting part is that my parents aren't around. they had gone to sydney to my sister's graduation ceremony. be back only like 8 days later... they left KL since monday evening.
so leaving me, my brother, the maid and the house.... so.. it's totally mayhem but yet freedom.... so.. without parents around.. very normal where all of me and my brother will be disppearing.... gone out with frens, come back late...
for me... this week is a week that full of spices.... happy, disappointed, tired, gladful... etc etc etc.... i went for alot of group gatherings, playing with dogs, fun drive around places, clubbings, BBQ, parties... yum cha.... and movies... so many things
everynight also got home around 12 or at times got home around 2 AM...
luckly i was fit enough to deal with these kind of lifestyle as i've gained alot of health during my months and months of training in the gym.... some describe me as social butterfly.... :) alot of things happening in this week.
i name this post as taste of past is because i used to stay alone while i'm working in penang. so i used to have alot of freedom.. back in those days... i didn't have that much of activities.. but mostly at home resting watching some show, cleaning up... ironing clothes... i supposed to be playing my piano over the holidays to relax and chill myself.. but that didn't happen... too many plans.... so little time at home... no one to blame.. but myself... i can't stay still nowadays... not this week. maybe some other times.
and the freedom week is going to end... parents coming back.... back to the days where people will ask where are u goin out... what time coming back.... and nagging here and there.
Saturday, October 4, 2008
Friday, October 3, 2008
i've been meme-ed ?
The rules and instructions as below:
The ones who got meme-ed must complete the survey,then take out a question that you dislike most and add another question, so it remains as 20 questions.
Tag 5 other people, and list out their names.
And you need to leave a message at their blogs telling them they got meme-ed!
These 5 people have to say where they received the meme, and tag 5 other people, and pass it around without returning.
The ones who got tagged will get everyone's blessing, and all wonderful dreams will come true in near future...
Get ready to read all my answers? Here we go....
What are your goals/dreams?
Steady life with good reputation on what i do at work. of course steady life = hefty income that doesn't bother how i spend. just more than comfortable is enough
The happiest thing in your life?
when i find my destined fate that will accompany me till the day i close my eyes.
Favorite color?
red
What would you do if you have a million dollars?
a million dollar is too little. i'll double or tripple the million dollar with business plans before spending on houses and cars and travel plans.
Where do you wish to go the most? Why?
no particular place to go, because i know one of the days i'll be successful enough to go whever places i want with my love ones. unrealisticly now will be going to the moon and back, just been thinking how long i'll live until the technology is available to do such travel for consumers.
What is your weakness that you can’t stand the most?
meeting someone that will make me loose my coolness. make me look so dumb infront of her.
What will you do if you face something sad?
take my car out... drive it around.... go somewhere quiet... listen to musics.... and look at the stars...
or just stay in the room and listen to musics and grab some drinks.
Most afraid to lose…?
myself
What is the practical target within this 5 years?
to have a reputation of building one of the best suspension in the local market. export more to overseas.
survive all the financial crisis that will be coming soon. if possible find my destined soulmate so that i could be at my 100% with the motivation.
Ask yourself, do you like yourself?
i love myself :) you can't start loving others when you don't like yourself. but there are things around or there are incidents happening to me that i don't like....
Favorite Song?
jazz musics....
What weird things that you wish to happen?
duty free importing of anything from everywhere of the world
What age do you wish to live until?
At least 70 and at most 80.
You hate which type of people the most?
they think they are too smart
Are you satisfied with your life?
not now.
What do you wish to do the most now?
to know someone from my below blog even more detailed.
What do you think will make you think that the human nature is dark?
World War.
If you are in deepest depression, who will you look for?
friends or lover (if i can have one)
A present that you wish to get from your lover.
her unconditioned love (if i have a lover)
And my question is.....
Animal/Insect you scared the most?
nothing
The ones who got meme-ed must complete the survey,then take out a question that you dislike most and add another question, so it remains as 20 questions.
Tag 5 other people, and list out their names.
And you need to leave a message at their blogs telling them they got meme-ed!
These 5 people have to say where they received the meme, and tag 5 other people, and pass it around without returning.
The ones who got tagged will get everyone's blessing, and all wonderful dreams will come true in near future...
Get ready to read all my answers? Here we go....
What are your goals/dreams?
Steady life with good reputation on what i do at work. of course steady life = hefty income that doesn't bother how i spend. just more than comfortable is enough
The happiest thing in your life?
when i find my destined fate that will accompany me till the day i close my eyes.
Favorite color?
red
What would you do if you have a million dollars?
a million dollar is too little. i'll double or tripple the million dollar with business plans before spending on houses and cars and travel plans.
Where do you wish to go the most? Why?
no particular place to go, because i know one of the days i'll be successful enough to go whever places i want with my love ones. unrealisticly now will be going to the moon and back, just been thinking how long i'll live until the technology is available to do such travel for consumers.
What is your weakness that you can’t stand the most?
meeting someone that will make me loose my coolness. make me look so dumb infront of her.
What will you do if you face something sad?
take my car out... drive it around.... go somewhere quiet... listen to musics.... and look at the stars...
or just stay in the room and listen to musics and grab some drinks.
Most afraid to lose…?
myself
What is the practical target within this 5 years?
to have a reputation of building one of the best suspension in the local market. export more to overseas.
survive all the financial crisis that will be coming soon. if possible find my destined soulmate so that i could be at my 100% with the motivation.
Ask yourself, do you like yourself?
i love myself :) you can't start loving others when you don't like yourself. but there are things around or there are incidents happening to me that i don't like....
Favorite Song?
jazz musics....
What weird things that you wish to happen?
duty free importing of anything from everywhere of the world
What age do you wish to live until?
At least 70 and at most 80.
You hate which type of people the most?
they think they are too smart
Are you satisfied with your life?
not now.
What do you wish to do the most now?
to know someone from my below blog even more detailed.
What do you think will make you think that the human nature is dark?
World War.
If you are in deepest depression, who will you look for?
friends or lover (if i can have one)
A present that you wish to get from your lover.
her unconditioned love (if i have a lover)
And my question is.....
Animal/Insect you scared the most?
nothing
Thursday, October 2, 2008
i'm not imuned
it was already a month since i last talk to her, or meet her or anything..
in between some bull shit email yeah... once in awhile.
and then it comes her b'day. i asked her for a meal she okay for it.
i tot it was imuned already since it's been a real long time since i last see her face to face.. like say almost 3 months.
but then when the 1st eye she showed up upon me, my heart beat stopped.....
i was like why is this still happening ?...i should be cool by now.. it's been awhile..
i guess i'm wrong. i'm not imuned. i'm forever not imuned especially towards her.
as usual, the meal was good, the conversation was good. it feels like she's trying to know me i feel like i'm being questioned quite alot.. talked about my work, talked about myself, and it seems like she had a perception of me as a heavy clubber, smoker, drinker. it's really not cool... for those who know me for a long time... i'm totally off the list ... not even previously a smoker... but as usual i like to talk so, it's a good time to talk. she did talked about herself and stuff, her family etc... but i didn't more things about her, because this is due to time is limited. it's a lunch. i don't have all day long there. i really wished that i could have more time to know more about her. got more chance to ask her out. as what i can see only see her face to face can get these kind of good feeling. not on the phone, not on email, not sms.
i guess i'm not imuned, and i'll get hit once again.. .and this could be the 3rd time...i maybe even getting hit if it continue like that...i feel that i'm running in circles.. how many circles i will end up running.....i can't forget... i can't untangle myself. tried but always back to the same point. the point where i get dazzled my heart stopped a beat or two... i'm looking away once in awhile during the meal just to avoid too much direct eye contact as my heart beat will stop....
that's how bad the virus is.....
and i have no idea what i could do anymore...
and i have no idea what i should do anymore....
and i have no idea what is going on anymore....
go with the flow i guess......die la
in between some bull shit email yeah... once in awhile.
and then it comes her b'day. i asked her for a meal she okay for it.
i tot it was imuned already since it's been a real long time since i last see her face to face.. like say almost 3 months.
but then when the 1st eye she showed up upon me, my heart beat stopped.....
i was like why is this still happening ?...i should be cool by now.. it's been awhile..
i guess i'm wrong. i'm not imuned. i'm forever not imuned especially towards her.
as usual, the meal was good, the conversation was good. it feels like she's trying to know me i feel like i'm being questioned quite alot.. talked about my work, talked about myself, and it seems like she had a perception of me as a heavy clubber, smoker, drinker. it's really not cool... for those who know me for a long time... i'm totally off the list ... not even previously a smoker... but as usual i like to talk so, it's a good time to talk. she did talked about herself and stuff, her family etc... but i didn't more things about her, because this is due to time is limited. it's a lunch. i don't have all day long there. i really wished that i could have more time to know more about her. got more chance to ask her out. as what i can see only see her face to face can get these kind of good feeling. not on the phone, not on email, not sms.
i guess i'm not imuned, and i'll get hit once again.. .and this could be the 3rd time...i maybe even getting hit if it continue like that...i feel that i'm running in circles.. how many circles i will end up running.....i can't forget... i can't untangle myself. tried but always back to the same point. the point where i get dazzled my heart stopped a beat or two... i'm looking away once in awhile during the meal just to avoid too much direct eye contact as my heart beat will stop....
that's how bad the virus is.....
and i have no idea what i could do anymore...
and i have no idea what i should do anymore....
and i have no idea what is going on anymore....
go with the flow i guess......die la
Tuesday, September 23, 2008
someone's birthday
it's end of september... the time my outlook page me there's a reminder... what reminder ? it's her birthday....
some might know who.. some might not.... the girl that's in the midsummer night feast.
it's been quite sometime already.... i'm just nothing more than a pest to her i guess... but i just don't understand why do i need to remember her birthday. actually not even her birthday.. just a range of dates i managed to figure out by piecing information together. yeap i did something this round. i wrote her 8 birthday card. just hopefully one of those card managed to hit her b'day on the spot :) yeah i'm stupid.... i guess... i couldn't be bothered anymore.. they are just cards... i know my odds....
well just leave it to fate. whatever it is that's coming.... only the hand that wrote our path of life knows... by listening to our heart, it will guide u to the direction we should be going. i guess it might be true.. i might meet someone in between... just follow my heart... but that didn't happen... what i earn from it is i managed to earn and know the exact day of her b'day. not a bad one afterall...
hope things turn out well..... no idea what's going on as well.
some might know who.. some might not.... the girl that's in the midsummer night feast.
it's been quite sometime already.... i'm just nothing more than a pest to her i guess... but i just don't understand why do i need to remember her birthday. actually not even her birthday.. just a range of dates i managed to figure out by piecing information together. yeap i did something this round. i wrote her 8 birthday card. just hopefully one of those card managed to hit her b'day on the spot :) yeah i'm stupid.... i guess... i couldn't be bothered anymore.. they are just cards... i know my odds....
well just leave it to fate. whatever it is that's coming.... only the hand that wrote our path of life knows... by listening to our heart, it will guide u to the direction we should be going. i guess it might be true.. i might meet someone in between... just follow my heart... but that didn't happen... what i earn from it is i managed to earn and know the exact day of her b'day. not a bad one afterall...
hope things turn out well..... no idea what's going on as well.
the old days
as you know i've posted alot of pictures in my facebook regarding my good old times... those carefree crazy days when i was in aussieland. we gamble for food, we drink like mad, we play football like there's no tmrw that need to wake up for class..... and we party real hard .... and eat alot.... cook rubbish...
but some old days reminds me of myself when i was in a mess..... mess as in.. when i was sad and down... especially when my relationship went down the drain.... the other day when i was clubbing in euphoria, i met a girl.... whatever she's doing whatever she's behaving... everything just look like myself when my relationship ended... no concentration, not enjoying, trying hard to
hide, but it just doesn't seem to hide easily. when riding with me, she requested a song to be repeated again and again.. that's how hurt she is... but a 2 months plus relationship ended can make a girl like that.... what's my damage for a 2.5 years of relationship....
whenever my testerone level is high, i have no worries about all these at all... i enjoy... i play... i rest... i chill....none of these stuff will come in and disturb my enjoyment... but at times.. i really wonder when is the one person that will walk in my life to accompany me when i enjoy, i play, i chill.....some day..... like someone always tells me... some day...when is the someday ??
but some old days reminds me of myself when i was in a mess..... mess as in.. when i was sad and down... especially when my relationship went down the drain.... the other day when i was clubbing in euphoria, i met a girl.... whatever she's doing whatever she's behaving... everything just look like myself when my relationship ended... no concentration, not enjoying, trying hard to
hide, but it just doesn't seem to hide easily. when riding with me, she requested a song to be repeated again and again.. that's how hurt she is... but a 2 months plus relationship ended can make a girl like that.... what's my damage for a 2.5 years of relationship....
whenever my testerone level is high, i have no worries about all these at all... i enjoy... i play... i rest... i chill....none of these stuff will come in and disturb my enjoyment... but at times.. i really wonder when is the one person that will walk in my life to accompany me when i enjoy, i play, i chill.....some day..... like someone always tells me... some day...when is the someday ??
Thursday, September 11, 2008
brain dead day
okay... i'm brain dead... trying to push hard myself to get at least something to be done... i know why i'm brain dead... 2 nights in a row that i'm sleeping around 2 AM .. waking up around 9 AM... totally not enough....
that's for me making promises to friends that i'm coming out.. this round as i FFK them few times and if i dun FFK, i didn't drive my fun car out... finally they see me driving my car out again... and the end result... blardy tired... got home late...
and today is like floating to me.... the brain feels like it's so big.... so heavy...
and feel like drinking some coffee .... shit.. coffee again.. i had enough coffee already.. but doesn't help much.... die..
guess go home earlier today.. take a rest... and go yoga and relax myself.
that's for me making promises to friends that i'm coming out.. this round as i FFK them few times and if i dun FFK, i didn't drive my fun car out... finally they see me driving my car out again... and the end result... blardy tired... got home late...
and today is like floating to me.... the brain feels like it's so big.... so heavy...
and feel like drinking some coffee .... shit.. coffee again.. i had enough coffee already.. but doesn't help much.... die..
guess go home earlier today.. take a rest... and go yoga and relax myself.
clearer picture
echo from the below post... i've edited the picture with circle showing you all where are the boat and where's the DM with a tank of fuel...
Friday, September 5, 2008
Human saving boat
Live reporting from a stranded boat. Its been 3 hour plus since the boat stopped working. Your dive operator is actually delivering the petrol to our supposed to be a savior boat. They ran out of fuel. Must be the pork bun, its a story must tell. In the picture, the black dot, its our dive operator swimming towards the savior boat. What a black day.
Stranded again.
This is the previously stranded dive operator that i posted few months ago. This round same we're stranded. With different boat. But the worse situation is that we're in the middle of the sea. No where near any land. So unlucky as i'm now full tank. Don't know how to release and when only can release.
Wednesday, August 27, 2008
yet another stressful day
another day again.. filled with frustration filled with hatred filled with stress.... so stress that i have to take a couple of ice cold beer and a couple of ciggy to relax my mind.... it's that terrible...
early morning again.. the old man is nagging the same old shit.. no one asked him to wait, no one ask him to take charge... when i work, i work on my own progress, i monitor my own progress, and i have my own deliverables and milestone. why do people like to interupt when there's nothing much to be changed. they just get in and make a big mess of what my milestone is.. and then start blaming when shit happens.
god darn tired and sick of the whole working environment that has no system and individual deliverables and milesstones does not really exist. where building a system is not a possible thing to happen here.... really sick..
i started to change, i implemented a few system which helped the company to monitor things better. but there are some "antique" that will not change... where they think it has been working this way why bother changing. there's no transparency at everyone's progress.
in a company, if the "antiques" wants to see things, they supposed to get status reports of even a weekly meeting to get things sorted. or even a week ahead planing that will give them all the information they required instead of when they are free, they come asking one by one that has been done god long time ago.
from now on.... i'm the project owner, i'm the project leader, i'll monitor my pace again... no one is going to change whatever i do.. if i screw up, it'll be my mistake no blaming. if you have anything to suggest, suggest to me. change my process and you'll get it from me eventhough you're an antique, i'll smash the antiques like i drop a vase...whatever you suggest, it'll be just a suggestion, to get it or not, it's all up to myself, the project owner, the project leader.
early morning again.. the old man is nagging the same old shit.. no one asked him to wait, no one ask him to take charge... when i work, i work on my own progress, i monitor my own progress, and i have my own deliverables and milestone. why do people like to interupt when there's nothing much to be changed. they just get in and make a big mess of what my milestone is.. and then start blaming when shit happens.
god darn tired and sick of the whole working environment that has no system and individual deliverables and milesstones does not really exist. where building a system is not a possible thing to happen here.... really sick..
i started to change, i implemented a few system which helped the company to monitor things better. but there are some "antique" that will not change... where they think it has been working this way why bother changing. there's no transparency at everyone's progress.
in a company, if the "antiques" wants to see things, they supposed to get status reports of even a weekly meeting to get things sorted. or even a week ahead planing that will give them all the information they required instead of when they are free, they come asking one by one that has been done god long time ago.
from now on.... i'm the project owner, i'm the project leader, i'll monitor my pace again... no one is going to change whatever i do.. if i screw up, it'll be my mistake no blaming. if you have anything to suggest, suggest to me. change my process and you'll get it from me eventhough you're an antique, i'll smash the antiques like i drop a vase...whatever you suggest, it'll be just a suggestion, to get it or not, it's all up to myself, the project owner, the project leader.
Monday, August 25, 2008
the danger of invisibility
what do i mean invisibility ? i'm not refering in work or anything... although in work, it seemed to be not so good because promotion or extra bonus or any good stuff will not end up on your hand....
the invisibility that i'm refering is stress. people nowadays in the city life are facing huge stress on work or on personal life. that's the price to pay for the ever evolving life of KL people.
i'm suspecting myself to be affected by some invisible stress. it's invisible, you don't feel it. last time when i was working back in intel... yeah at certain time, i can feel that i'm seriously stressed, short of breath, lack of concentration.
the last sunday, after i came back from hang out, from playing with fire arm..full of adrenaline... and i felt so blardy tired... but then the mind is actually spinning at an infinite speed... no idea what's it spinning for.. just like when u got a computer that's constantly crunching HDD but you're not doing anything.... that's the time when you suspect it's being infected by malware or so called worm.
then on the day, i was looking for alot of diffferent food to eat... keep eating only.. i have no idea why, i wasn't hungry.. just a craving for food... so difficult i work hard in the gym to be at this shape of body.. but then i don't wanna waste all my effort... i guess i'm on some invisible stress, no idea what am i stressing on...
even now... mood swing again... terrible me... what am i stressing on... i just sound like a cunt only... and i'm darn un happy about everything.....
i want to break away from all the invisible stress that's affecting me....
the invisibility that i'm refering is stress. people nowadays in the city life are facing huge stress on work or on personal life. that's the price to pay for the ever evolving life of KL people.
i'm suspecting myself to be affected by some invisible stress. it's invisible, you don't feel it. last time when i was working back in intel... yeah at certain time, i can feel that i'm seriously stressed, short of breath, lack of concentration.
the last sunday, after i came back from hang out, from playing with fire arm..full of adrenaline... and i felt so blardy tired... but then the mind is actually spinning at an infinite speed... no idea what's it spinning for.. just like when u got a computer that's constantly crunching HDD but you're not doing anything.... that's the time when you suspect it's being infected by malware or so called worm.
then on the day, i was looking for alot of diffferent food to eat... keep eating only.. i have no idea why, i wasn't hungry.. just a craving for food... so difficult i work hard in the gym to be at this shape of body.. but then i don't wanna waste all my effort... i guess i'm on some invisible stress, no idea what am i stressing on...
even now... mood swing again... terrible me... what am i stressing on... i just sound like a cunt only... and i'm darn un happy about everything.....
i want to break away from all the invisible stress that's affecting me....
Tuesday, August 19, 2008
twisting fates
talking about fates, sometimes it's really not up to anyone to control fate is pre-destined by the ones up there high above... we don't know what's going to happen.
like i mentioned before that the heart is the one that gives hint on what's going to happen and tells you to act upon it. and that's fate.
my fate seemed to be twisting and twisting and twisting... going in circles. i thought that i'm over with certain thing in my life, just have get on with my life and do whatever is necessary. but at a certain time, suddenly things just get twisted back again... aka deja vu... back to the point of incident that i supposed to be over with....
thus i'll be tangled in the forest of thorns with no direction where i'm going to move.. will i see the light again if i continue to move forward or i have to find my way backward through the forest of thorn to save myself from getting stung.
like i mentioned before that the heart is the one that gives hint on what's going to happen and tells you to act upon it. and that's fate.
my fate seemed to be twisting and twisting and twisting... going in circles. i thought that i'm over with certain thing in my life, just have get on with my life and do whatever is necessary. but at a certain time, suddenly things just get twisted back again... aka deja vu... back to the point of incident that i supposed to be over with....
thus i'll be tangled in the forest of thorns with no direction where i'm going to move.. will i see the light again if i continue to move forward or i have to find my way backward through the forest of thorn to save myself from getting stung.
Saturday, August 16, 2008
dreams again
what is actually happening... ?? what's going wrong with my mind.... i guess i need alot of relaxings..
my brain is not functioning well. thus i'm puting unwanted feelings on this blog so that i don't need to keep it in my mind and bugging my progress of the day...
have you every had a dream that's so real? and the moment you wake up, you realise that it's just a dream. the feeling was so real and so good that it made you doesn't want to wake up at all. makes you feel like you wanted to continue dream on and see what's going on.
yeah i wrote something like this on my blog before... i'm writting now again because i'm having another dream again.... same person... sequel from the previous dream...
it was so good... it was so real... it was so happy.... (during the dream). *not a wet dream
in today's dream, i was cuddling with her and then we alot of conversation alot of explanation... and it wasn't just plain talk.. it was whispering on each other's ear... can you ever imagine how good was the feeling of whispering through out the whole conversation? oh my god.. that's really good thing...
and it's bad.. totally it's bad for me, bad for my mental health. messed around with my mind.... some how certain part of me starting not to like dreams.... it actually made people miserable that the real world isn't as good in the dream. rather not to have any dream. hope for another dreamless nights.... quality rest...
what a terrible night.....
my brain is not functioning well. thus i'm puting unwanted feelings on this blog so that i don't need to keep it in my mind and bugging my progress of the day...
have you every had a dream that's so real? and the moment you wake up, you realise that it's just a dream. the feeling was so real and so good that it made you doesn't want to wake up at all. makes you feel like you wanted to continue dream on and see what's going on.
yeah i wrote something like this on my blog before... i'm writting now again because i'm having another dream again.... same person... sequel from the previous dream...
it was so good... it was so real... it was so happy.... (during the dream). *not a wet dream
in today's dream, i was cuddling with her and then we alot of conversation alot of explanation... and it wasn't just plain talk.. it was whispering on each other's ear... can you ever imagine how good was the feeling of whispering through out the whole conversation? oh my god.. that's really good thing...
and it's bad.. totally it's bad for me, bad for my mental health. messed around with my mind.... some how certain part of me starting not to like dreams.... it actually made people miserable that the real world isn't as good in the dream. rather not to have any dream. hope for another dreamless nights.... quality rest...
what a terrible night.....
Friday, August 15, 2008
past times
somehow when i have free times, i tend to read back my blog on what i wrote last time. at times, i found out that they are seriously kinda stupid... luckly... this blog is a place for me to throw my unwanted thinkings or feelings ...
those good things to be kept inside my mind, and sometimes here to share...
and i realise i do have frens that go in and give me comment about the blogs... thanks very much for it...
someday when i grow much older, i'll be laughing myself even harder if i haven't end this blog.. it's just like a diary but open to public... like i still keep my 17 year old diary.. but i know if i open it up i'll be thinking... young teens.... and then i have my diary of the age 19 to 20.... and i'll be thinking by now.. what is this guy thinking..... and then i didn't write anything all the way until now.... which is like 7 years gap... and when i turn 30... i'll be laughing at my 27...
look at how fast the time had catch up.... very soon.. there'll be 30 candles on my b'day cake.... where i can't finish blowing it with one breath...
getting old is totally inevitable... but all i want is to get old full of satisfaction in life.
those good things to be kept inside my mind, and sometimes here to share...
and i realise i do have frens that go in and give me comment about the blogs... thanks very much for it...
someday when i grow much older, i'll be laughing myself even harder if i haven't end this blog.. it's just like a diary but open to public... like i still keep my 17 year old diary.. but i know if i open it up i'll be thinking... young teens.... and then i have my diary of the age 19 to 20.... and i'll be thinking by now.. what is this guy thinking..... and then i didn't write anything all the way until now.... which is like 7 years gap... and when i turn 30... i'll be laughing at my 27...
look at how fast the time had catch up.... very soon.. there'll be 30 candles on my b'day cake.... where i can't finish blowing it with one breath...
getting old is totally inevitable... but all i want is to get old full of satisfaction in life.
Tuesday, August 12, 2008
weekend
A: did your mommy teach u not to play with fire ? now the fire had torched u once, but it's not a bad burn.. but why do you still wanna go play fire ?
B: i'm not playing fire, i was just looking at it... and yeah i did play a little bit...
A: do you still wanna get burn ?
B: don't really like the feeling of getting burn... but the fire already started... i had a dream that the fire actually made me feel warm and happy. but then i really don't realise that the fire could start back up that easily although i put it out already. i'll be careful this time... hopefully i don't so stupid put my hand into the fire again. wait till it burns off it gas... and i shall not touch the fire again...
A: looking at your attitude, will you really let it burn finish and let it be?
B: my attitude..don't know... sometimes i'll really let it burn... but then who knows the fire became bigger and burn me while i don't realise it.. just hope it doesn't... just hope the fire shows up for fun... not to burn people.. reminding myself not to put my hands into the fire.
A: well then.. good luck...
B: sure do i need all the luck... SAKAI on FIRE....
B: i'm not playing fire, i was just looking at it... and yeah i did play a little bit...
A: do you still wanna get burn ?
B: don't really like the feeling of getting burn... but the fire already started... i had a dream that the fire actually made me feel warm and happy. but then i really don't realise that the fire could start back up that easily although i put it out already. i'll be careful this time... hopefully i don't so stupid put my hand into the fire again. wait till it burns off it gas... and i shall not touch the fire again...
A: looking at your attitude, will you really let it burn finish and let it be?
B: my attitude..don't know... sometimes i'll really let it burn... but then who knows the fire became bigger and burn me while i don't realise it.. just hope it doesn't... just hope the fire shows up for fun... not to burn people.. reminding myself not to put my hands into the fire.
A: well then.. good luck...
B: sure do i need all the luck... SAKAI on FIRE....
Friday, August 8, 2008
Stupid people
I'm bloging this while i'm waiting for my lunch. Shit happens when there isn't calibration. But certain people thinks that calibration is a waste of time. I don't think it is. When its not calibrated, unnecessary efforts will be wasted on things that already been done by others. Thus i call it stupid people doing stupid things that already done by others. Waste of time and effort. My food is here. Time to eat.
Tuesday, August 5, 2008
know thy self
after the dayang trip, i slowly get to know myself better. as you can read my blog, i sort of quite lost for quite some time.... maybe after i broke off with my loved one last year.
i slowly get to know that i'm a very adventurous person, i'm totally not a lazy person. city lifes are making me lazy, making me lost myself don't know what kind of life do i want. but going to the island, make me feel like i'm myself again.
i like adventures... i like travelling, i like to go places, i like enjoyment. it's quite true, i'm an aquarious that doesn't settle down. yeah i need companion, i like companion. but if the companion can be around me when i do my adventure, that's of course like a dream come true. but it only happen in dreams.
people like me, adventurous, guess won't be able to settle down soon. i was thinking last time before i broke off, i wanted to settle down and get on with pre-destined life. but then now i realise, although settling down with loved ones is great but it aint myself.
all i hope is that, in my adventure of life, i will find someone on the way that appreciates adventurous life like i do... and we shall be happy.... some day.... the same old word that's being used by someone...
i slowly get to know that i'm a very adventurous person, i'm totally not a lazy person. city lifes are making me lazy, making me lost myself don't know what kind of life do i want. but going to the island, make me feel like i'm myself again.
i like adventures... i like travelling, i like to go places, i like enjoyment. it's quite true, i'm an aquarious that doesn't settle down. yeah i need companion, i like companion. but if the companion can be around me when i do my adventure, that's of course like a dream come true. but it only happen in dreams.
people like me, adventurous, guess won't be able to settle down soon. i was thinking last time before i broke off, i wanted to settle down and get on with pre-destined life. but then now i realise, although settling down with loved ones is great but it aint myself.
all i hope is that, in my adventure of life, i will find someone on the way that appreciates adventurous life like i do... and we shall be happy.... some day.... the same old word that's being used by someone...
Monday, August 4, 2008
back from Dayang
ahhhh what a good weekend of diving...
at Pulau Dayang... alot of ya all might not know where in the world is dayang island.. the closest island to dayang is Tioman island.. that you all know..
my trip was good in general. but due to the fact that the funny GPS system took me to Mersing using pure trunk road... took me 5.5 hours of driving. and those villages that i haven't even heard before. plus the GPS took me to a road where it doesn't exist.... turn right in 100 m... there's no right turn.. only jungle...have to back track to the main road and hit further town and restart GPS.
then it takes 6 hours of boat ride to the island... in a very very rocky sea. in a very smelly diesel powered boat. terrible experience.... immediately next day arrive at 6 AM at the island... check in and just sleep till 8 something for breakfast.. then dive...
in total i made 11 dives in 2 days.. and got really drunk on the final night... crazy shit happens when everyone is drunk.... and mostly guys... that's crazy shit.
i'll post photos into my facebook. feel free to check it out...
in between those exhausting days, one of the night i dreamt of her... blardy hell.. i supposed to just forget about it... but why did my brain want to dream like that... but it was so real, it feels so real... in fact in the dream i french kissed her. wahhhhh that was so cool... then next day... a few dives.... forget about it already. hope i can totally put a side not to think about it...just sien...
now back to office with my broadband line...back to urban city lifestyle.. to my boring days of office and home.... sighs... looking forward to september for ANOTHER DIVE TRIP bwahahahahahahha
at Pulau Dayang... alot of ya all might not know where in the world is dayang island.. the closest island to dayang is Tioman island.. that you all know..
my trip was good in general. but due to the fact that the funny GPS system took me to Mersing using pure trunk road... took me 5.5 hours of driving. and those villages that i haven't even heard before. plus the GPS took me to a road where it doesn't exist.... turn right in 100 m... there's no right turn.. only jungle...have to back track to the main road and hit further town and restart GPS.
then it takes 6 hours of boat ride to the island... in a very very rocky sea. in a very smelly diesel powered boat. terrible experience.... immediately next day arrive at 6 AM at the island... check in and just sleep till 8 something for breakfast.. then dive...
in total i made 11 dives in 2 days.. and got really drunk on the final night... crazy shit happens when everyone is drunk.... and mostly guys... that's crazy shit.
i'll post photos into my facebook. feel free to check it out...
in between those exhausting days, one of the night i dreamt of her... blardy hell.. i supposed to just forget about it... but why did my brain want to dream like that... but it was so real, it feels so real... in fact in the dream i french kissed her. wahhhhh that was so cool... then next day... a few dives.... forget about it already. hope i can totally put a side not to think about it...just sien...
now back to office with my broadband line...back to urban city lifestyle.. to my boring days of office and home.... sighs... looking forward to september for ANOTHER DIVE TRIP bwahahahahahahha
Thursday, July 24, 2008
back to oneself
so.. i guess that's the sweet dream.. there isn't anything left. for those who wondered what i'm saying.... it means... i'm back to my ownself.
myself that's always alone, always free, and always up for any plans that's within my physical range of reach. just sometimes kinda lonely... need someone to accompany me... but then at the moment, there isn't any specific person.. just friends that sit along drink some tea... some beer...some coke... some juice... that'll do fine.
indeed previous few post... as u can see.. it's a good dream... it is a good dream.. i haven't been feeling like that for a long time... not to mention got scolded by someone isn't that close...and ended up debating here and there... with someone not that close also.. it's really a wake up call for me... it's good to have such feeling after a really long long time...
so.... i'm back... :) back to give you all some good stories... some good dreams... less complain about me being lonely... i hope la.. ahahahha
she... just another 擦肩而过
myself that's always alone, always free, and always up for any plans that's within my physical range of reach. just sometimes kinda lonely... need someone to accompany me... but then at the moment, there isn't any specific person.. just friends that sit along drink some tea... some beer...some coke... some juice... that'll do fine.
indeed previous few post... as u can see.. it's a good dream... it is a good dream.. i haven't been feeling like that for a long time... not to mention got scolded by someone isn't that close...and ended up debating here and there... with someone not that close also.. it's really a wake up call for me... it's good to have such feeling after a really long long time...
so.... i'm back... :) back to give you all some good stories... some good dreams... less complain about me being lonely... i hope la.. ahahahha
she... just another 擦肩而过
Sunday, July 20, 2008
sundays.....
Sundays are bored like one kind. yeah i get to sleep till the sun shine on my ass in the noon. that's only when i got too tired over saturday night or too much drinks =)... normally i'll just wake up by 9 AM.... and i have a plain more than 16 hours of nothing to do...
i was reflecting what i did on saturday night... not bad at all... had 2 dinner in one night... 2nd dinner with beer... good stuff to hang out with even just one friend. bitch it out all the unhappiness.... you haven't seen guys bitch before leh ? ekkekeke then follow up with 2nd round of alcohol night at a fren's place till late night...
in between... yeah finally i had a interactive call with her... very interactive... it was since the midsummer night feast...just feeling so cold.. anyway it was a little bit of this and that in the content.. but yet i find it kinda enjoyable debating, partially hearing her raise her voice over the phone... haven't been hearing things like that for a long long time....
she had been complaining that i'm too free. for those who know me, know my job, they know me well that i'm very free. so free that sometimes it lets people feel annoyed that how come there are such people that free.... that's on my non office hours i'm that free and plus i have flexibility on my working hours as well..
how do i treat my friend? some will know, i treat some frens like crap.. bcoz i tend to forget about them... that's a bad habit... now that i'm single... i treat every female as good as it gets... don't mind spending a few bucks on meals... making it a good experience... have some chats or hang out to fill up my emptiness and loneliness... what is a movie date? just another excuse to catch up for a movie instead of going to watch it alone. flowers ? that's debatable... maybe that's some extra there... the base line is that... whatever i do... is just filling up my emptiness loneliness by spending time and effort with anyone... making myself feel happy and good by making them feel that i do exist as someone that will or try to make their day good. i get happiness by doing that...if someone appreciates all these.. let's move along and see what's infront for us...
yeap the sweet dream is over.. but it was an entertaining dream... it was a good dream... a dream so good to be memorable... and me and her face SHOULD will be featured in THE PEAK and also MALAYSIA TATTLER magazine that's according to the editor that i contacted....no idea where to grab it... but if you interested to see... find your way to get a copy of those mags... for next month's issue.
i was reflecting what i did on saturday night... not bad at all... had 2 dinner in one night... 2nd dinner with beer... good stuff to hang out with even just one friend. bitch it out all the unhappiness.... you haven't seen guys bitch before leh ? ekkekeke then follow up with 2nd round of alcohol night at a fren's place till late night...
in between... yeah finally i had a interactive call with her... very interactive... it was since the midsummer night feast...just feeling so cold.. anyway it was a little bit of this and that in the content.. but yet i find it kinda enjoyable debating, partially hearing her raise her voice over the phone... haven't been hearing things like that for a long long time....
she had been complaining that i'm too free. for those who know me, know my job, they know me well that i'm very free. so free that sometimes it lets people feel annoyed that how come there are such people that free.... that's on my non office hours i'm that free and plus i have flexibility on my working hours as well..
how do i treat my friend? some will know, i treat some frens like crap.. bcoz i tend to forget about them... that's a bad habit... now that i'm single... i treat every female as good as it gets... don't mind spending a few bucks on meals... making it a good experience... have some chats or hang out to fill up my emptiness and loneliness... what is a movie date? just another excuse to catch up for a movie instead of going to watch it alone. flowers ? that's debatable... maybe that's some extra there... the base line is that... whatever i do... is just filling up my emptiness loneliness by spending time and effort with anyone... making myself feel happy and good by making them feel that i do exist as someone that will or try to make their day good. i get happiness by doing that...if someone appreciates all these.. let's move along and see what's infront for us...
yeap the sweet dream is over.. but it was an entertaining dream... it was a good dream... a dream so good to be memorable... and me and her face SHOULD will be featured in THE PEAK and also MALAYSIA TATTLER magazine that's according to the editor that i contacted....no idea where to grab it... but if you interested to see... find your way to get a copy of those mags... for next month's issue.
Friday, July 18, 2008
not a good night.
last night... i just got a feeling that things aren't going right... maybe i'm thinking too much... but things just got kinda abnormal..
and i'm doing it again.. bringing drinks... but unfortunately, not successfully delivered due to unavailability.
and mahjong last night... it was exceptionally abnormal tiles... just don't know why..
and at night... difficulty sleeping .... ever since my brain is being clogged by my emo.... i haven't been having deep sleep. morning wake up the brain feels drunk.. even i didn't had a bit of alcohol....
just no idea what is this abnormal feeling... something is not right....i don't know what's not right.... i wished i know.. i wished that my life will be better.... not so miserable....
and i'm doing it again.. bringing drinks... but unfortunately, not successfully delivered due to unavailability.
and mahjong last night... it was exceptionally abnormal tiles... just don't know why..
and at night... difficulty sleeping .... ever since my brain is being clogged by my emo.... i haven't been having deep sleep. morning wake up the brain feels drunk.. even i didn't had a bit of alcohol....
just no idea what is this abnormal feeling... something is not right....i don't know what's not right.... i wished i know.. i wished that my life will be better.... not so miserable....
Tuesday, July 15, 2008
李圣杰- 擦肩而过
我爱着谁 爱到我有点醉
告诉我你是谁 能够把我让我变不对
你不会累 但我却爱你爱到好累
从没有为了谁 不顾安危付出一切
站在这平衡点 我还是觉得有点危险
或许是看不见 只能够靠感觉
他不会是个好男人 也不会是个好情人
你对我说 我们只是擦肩而过
好的男人有那么多 少了他的日子也能活
我不会再让你寂寞 也不会让你更难过
你听我说 要好好学着去生活
就算未来有多少错 至少还有我的问候 我的温柔陪你度过
你听我说 你不要这么做
你不要看着我 说你已经知道怎么做
你很难受 我愿意陪你一起承受
只要你不怕痛 再多坎坷我都陪你走
站在这平衡点 我还是觉得有点危险
或许是看不见 只能够靠感觉
他不会是个好男人 也不会是个好情人
你对我说 我们只是擦肩而过
好的男人有那么多 少了他的日子也能活
我不会再让你寂寞 也不会让你更难过
你听我说 要好好学着去生活
就算未来有多少错 至少还有我的问候 我的温柔陪你度过
他不会是个好男人 也不会是个好情人
你对我说 我们只是擦肩而过
好的男人有那么多 少了他的日子也能活
我不会再让你寂寞 也不会让你更难过
你听我说 要好好学着去生活
就算未来有多少错 至少还有我的问候 我的温柔陪你度过
what sign i should date ?
recently i took the test.... i'm an aquarius and my result as below.
You should date a Taurus, Virgo, or Capricorn. If you're looking for a hard-working, dependable, and loyal lover, then look no further than an Earth sign! Don't mistake this introvert as someone who isn't social because they have quite the charm.
seriously quite true....that's someone that i might be looking for.... someone not too crazy in life, someone smart, someone loyal...there are certain degree of sociable as well as i do :)
just babble.....
You should date a Taurus, Virgo, or Capricorn. If you're looking for a hard-working, dependable, and loyal lover, then look no further than an Earth sign! Don't mistake this introvert as someone who isn't social because they have quite the charm.
seriously quite true....that's someone that i might be looking for.... someone not too crazy in life, someone smart, someone loyal...there are certain degree of sociable as well as i do :)
just babble.....
Monday, July 14, 2008
my daily life
today i was thinking what do i do daily?....
Monday.... work then gym... then get tired and rest at night
Tuesday.... work then bowling... then get tired and rest at night again sometimes replace the bowling with some business social activity with the beers...
wednesday.... work then gym... then get tired and rest at night...
thursday... work then rest.. then take a dry swim aka stacking tiles with my diving buddies... then get real tired and rest at night....
friday... work.. then yoga session..... then at times.... JSOC meet up.. and get crazy till late night....
saturday.... start work late.... finish around 6...
and that's the time when the most difficult part of the week comes.... i don't have anything fixed on saturday and sundays..... basically at a certain point of time.... i don't like weekends.... because i don't have any partner to spend time with, i don't know where to go, i don't know what to do.
my weekends... take out some books to read... less than 2 hour... got bored... and head to play piano for awhile.... and got bored in less than 1 hour.... and watched TV... and go back to sleep... then wake up.... at times... go super market and buy some ingredients to try out.... mess up the kitchen....
saturdays and sundays are really not a good day for me.. when people tell me have a good weekend.... i was wishing if my weekends i can spend time with someone....get to understand someone... more...it's tough to get back into the sort of life...
Monday.... work then gym... then get tired and rest at night
Tuesday.... work then bowling... then get tired and rest at night again sometimes replace the bowling with some business social activity with the beers...
wednesday.... work then gym... then get tired and rest at night...
thursday... work then rest.. then take a dry swim aka stacking tiles with my diving buddies... then get real tired and rest at night....
friday... work.. then yoga session..... then at times.... JSOC meet up.. and get crazy till late night....
saturday.... start work late.... finish around 6...
and that's the time when the most difficult part of the week comes.... i don't have anything fixed on saturday and sundays..... basically at a certain point of time.... i don't like weekends.... because i don't have any partner to spend time with, i don't know where to go, i don't know what to do.
my weekends... take out some books to read... less than 2 hour... got bored... and head to play piano for awhile.... and got bored in less than 1 hour.... and watched TV... and go back to sleep... then wake up.... at times... go super market and buy some ingredients to try out.... mess up the kitchen....
saturdays and sundays are really not a good day for me.. when people tell me have a good weekend.... i was wishing if my weekends i can spend time with someone....get to understand someone... more...it's tough to get back into the sort of life...
it's been awhile
it's been awhile since i last got feelings towards someone. and the effect is.... messy.... behaving wierd, or something don't know what to do.
argh... i tot i was strong in every term of life... but then when it comes to these... weak beyond words....
somesay... i shall just go with the flow... and don't expect too much.... so that i don't get disappointed.... i think it's correct....i should be having that kind of mindset....
argh... i tot i was strong in every term of life... but then when it comes to these... weak beyond words....
somesay... i shall just go with the flow... and don't expect too much.... so that i don't get disappointed.... i think it's correct....i should be having that kind of mindset....
Sunday, July 13, 2008
a sweet dream had ended
11th of July 2008, a midsummer night feast opening gala at starhill, that's the sweet dream that i've been talking about. why is it a sweet dream? it's just a publicity event.
the highlight of the night wasn't just the food, it was the combination of perfect date, perfect food, perfect performance. the event was so formal that there are so many press were taking photos here and there. my date the night, she is the most beautiful girl that i've ever seen. we actually draws quite some attention for photographers, me and my date coincidently wore all white. .we were the only couple that wear all white, the rest are dark color, black color etc.
the night went on really well. good chat, good food, good music.... i should stress out that the company of her is seriously nothing can be match.
why do i call it a sweet dream? just imagine you have the most beautiful girl you've ever known to be your date for the night, and both wear some matching clothes to the event. but my guts tells me already she's taken. but by accepting my invitation i'm filtering alot of facts. thus it's like a dream..you set your own scenario.
luckly the night went out smoothly, as an addition she got a dozen of rose from me. everything was SO PERFECT for the night. but then.... a sweet dream eventually ended. although i would like an extension... but sometimes those guys up there are pretty fair to everyone... not one gets extra...
i already had an extra for dreaming on the night itself while i'm trying to sleep. i had a dream about her. pieces of good moments as i'm going after her. and at the end of the dream, i melted her heart with sincerity and care. and that's the extra dream that i got. this is seriously the best back to back sweet dream ever happen to me in my life. guess it might be time to get back to my ownself. we'll see how it goes.... some how i need some luck as well...
the highlight of the night wasn't just the food, it was the combination of perfect date, perfect food, perfect performance. the event was so formal that there are so many press were taking photos here and there. my date the night, she is the most beautiful girl that i've ever seen. we actually draws quite some attention for photographers, me and my date coincidently wore all white. .we were the only couple that wear all white, the rest are dark color, black color etc.
the night went on really well. good chat, good food, good music.... i should stress out that the company of her is seriously nothing can be match.
why do i call it a sweet dream? just imagine you have the most beautiful girl you've ever known to be your date for the night, and both wear some matching clothes to the event. but my guts tells me already she's taken. but by accepting my invitation i'm filtering alot of facts. thus it's like a dream..you set your own scenario.
luckly the night went out smoothly, as an addition she got a dozen of rose from me. everything was SO PERFECT for the night. but then.... a sweet dream eventually ended. although i would like an extension... but sometimes those guys up there are pretty fair to everyone... not one gets extra...
i already had an extra for dreaming on the night itself while i'm trying to sleep. i had a dream about her. pieces of good moments as i'm going after her. and at the end of the dream, i melted her heart with sincerity and care. and that's the extra dream that i got. this is seriously the best back to back sweet dream ever happen to me in my life. guess it might be time to get back to my ownself. we'll see how it goes.... some how i need some luck as well...
Thursday, July 3, 2008
my sweet dream
i think i'm currently living in a sweet dream....why do i say i'm in my own sweet dream ? because normally at night.. when you got a dream at night, normally you can't control your dream. it'll flow accordingly.
but in one of my post i mentioned the dream life.... living in a dream life, you pre-set your own conditions, your own situation. at the moment, i'm in a dream. that's for following my heart doing things that are unexplainable like waiting for someone in the middle of the night.
i will continue to live in this sweet dream, regardless what's the realistic situation out there. while i'm waiting for that someone, i don't really care if the condition is in favor of me or not. like i said this might be a dream for me, i shall take it as a dream. i set my the situation, and i walk in my dreams.... maybe someday i will wake up.... knowing that it's just a dream that's the time where the reality is overpowering my pre-set situation. and i shall wake up... and it will be a great dream to remember. maybe a short one as well.
if my pre-set situation continues without the reality over powering, or let's say the reality has nothing to interfere my sweet dream, i shall continue to dream. never know one day, the dream became a reality and i don't need to dream anymore. and by that time, my dream is my life and it's the reality that i'm a happy man once again.
a sweet dream hasn't ended yet.
but in one of my post i mentioned the dream life.... living in a dream life, you pre-set your own conditions, your own situation. at the moment, i'm in a dream. that's for following my heart doing things that are unexplainable like waiting for someone in the middle of the night.
i will continue to live in this sweet dream, regardless what's the realistic situation out there. while i'm waiting for that someone, i don't really care if the condition is in favor of me or not. like i said this might be a dream for me, i shall take it as a dream. i set my the situation, and i walk in my dreams.... maybe someday i will wake up.... knowing that it's just a dream that's the time where the reality is overpowering my pre-set situation. and i shall wake up... and it will be a great dream to remember. maybe a short one as well.
if my pre-set situation continues without the reality over powering, or let's say the reality has nothing to interfere my sweet dream, i shall continue to dream. never know one day, the dream became a reality and i don't need to dream anymore. and by that time, my dream is my life and it's the reality that i'm a happy man once again.
a sweet dream hasn't ended yet.
Wednesday, July 2, 2008
am i stupid ? or i'm a rare breed of a kind...
somehow i believe i'm a kind of person that's stupid... as in... not to say that i'm not intelligent or i'm not smart..... how smart am i... definitely IQ higher than typical people bwahahhaha
but now how i believe my innerself is quite deep. i can't express alot at times... tend to keep to myself, thus i started blogging... throwing out my thoughts... it felt a little better....
i say i'm funny as in... when i do something... there isn't much reasoning behind.. i realised it now... yeah u treat a gf nice... that's normal.. and that's infact a must... then why get a gf if you don't treat them well.... but somehow... even someone is not my gf, i tend to be happy when i get to treat them well.... i kinda get a good satisfaction feeling when i care for someone..... i get satisfied mentally when i get to accompany someone go through hard times.... i can stay up all night long to accompany someone work.... hypothetically staying up to accompany someone that has a long night to go through.
especially my best female fren always tells me... whoever that got attached with me...she's seriously lucky... probably my fate hasn't arrive yet.... still wondering somewhere outside.... some day.... some day..... i will have my happiness back again....but somehow... never try never know....i shall follow my heart..... although my heart always lead me to do something stupid that's in-explainable... only wished that my heart will show me the route that i have to walk.... things happen for a reason... if the heart wants me to get disappointed again... no choice... be it...
i'll continue to follow my heart in search of my happiness...
but now how i believe my innerself is quite deep. i can't express alot at times... tend to keep to myself, thus i started blogging... throwing out my thoughts... it felt a little better....
i say i'm funny as in... when i do something... there isn't much reasoning behind.. i realised it now... yeah u treat a gf nice... that's normal.. and that's infact a must... then why get a gf if you don't treat them well.... but somehow... even someone is not my gf, i tend to be happy when i get to treat them well.... i kinda get a good satisfaction feeling when i care for someone..... i get satisfied mentally when i get to accompany someone go through hard times.... i can stay up all night long to accompany someone work.... hypothetically staying up to accompany someone that has a long night to go through.
especially my best female fren always tells me... whoever that got attached with me...she's seriously lucky... probably my fate hasn't arrive yet.... still wondering somewhere outside.... some day.... some day..... i will have my happiness back again....but somehow... never try never know....i shall follow my heart..... although my heart always lead me to do something stupid that's in-explainable... only wished that my heart will show me the route that i have to walk.... things happen for a reason... if the heart wants me to get disappointed again... no choice... be it...
i'll continue to follow my heart in search of my happiness...
Tuesday, July 1, 2008
dreams.....
dream is a very important thing for a person.... a dream is not actually something that comes at night... they have day dreaming.... night dreaming.... and they have a vision dreaming....
dream is not actually something that it won't happen... it's something that hint you about a thing in life that's going to happen... there exist a dream decipher that tells what those those dream is about....
i have a dream... it's not something that comes at night..... it's not something that show up in my mind without myself noticing it... my dream is something i wanted my life to happen.... my dream is related to my life..... i dream of a someone that will be a very good company to me... as that someone is really worth me sacrificing for.... someone that won't stop their man as he go searches his destiny... that is what a true love is .....
dream is not actually something that it won't happen... it's something that hint you about a thing in life that's going to happen... there exist a dream decipher that tells what those those dream is about....
i have a dream... it's not something that comes at night..... it's not something that show up in my mind without myself noticing it... my dream is something i wanted my life to happen.... my dream is related to my life..... i dream of a someone that will be a very good company to me... as that someone is really worth me sacrificing for.... someone that won't stop their man as he go searches his destiny... that is what a true love is .....
Monday, June 30, 2008
Sunday night
Sunday night is the night that i felt bored.. although the whole afternoon i was having fun doing things that what i do best and what i'm interest the most.... cars again :) with my friend.
night time... i ended up trying to save my computer from going total break down... it had served me well since early 2004. till now... it's 4.5 years old... it's giving me problem... blue screen problem.. even i reinstalled the computer with a fresh new operating system. guess i'll slowly source which computer i should get next...
other than that... i spent all night long finishing my storybook... "the alchemist" it's not a very long story.. but it's really nice... it tells a story of a boy.... he had a dream about treasure in the pyramids.. but he's from Spain... the story tells his whole journey from spain to the pyramids...
the main message in the story is that, follow the heart, observe omens.... if it's destined to happen, it will happen. regardless it's good or bad.... that boy got robbed 3 times in his journey, loosing everything he had ever earned in his life.... in the end.. he got his treasure.. but it's not in the pyramids..... the universe tells him that he needs to be at the pyramids but his treasure is actually in Spain.... how does that mean ? it means when he travel all the way to the pyramids, he ended up meeting his last robber... and the robber told him that he had a dream about a treasure in spain... the robber is stupid enough not to cross the whole desert to reach his treasure.. but yet the universe leads the boy to pyramids to listen to the robber... and he went all the way back to spain for his treasure.... that's the treasure...
when we stop listening to our heart... our heart will stop telling us what to do... omens will stop appearing...and a human is just a mere human living lives daily without anything special....
i guess what i benefit from the story is that.... i do have to follow my heart.... if it's destined that i'll fail again or get hurt again..... be it... the gods has its own way of showing a person how to lead ones life.... if i avoid... i won't gain anything....and i won't loose anything.. just a plain person...
guess i doesn't really want to be a plain person... i want to be a happy, successful, beloved person for someone.....
who's the someone.... i have no idea.... i don't know when she'll appear... or she is coming.... or whatever is coming is just a test.... i shall listen to my heart... observe omens....
night time... i ended up trying to save my computer from going total break down... it had served me well since early 2004. till now... it's 4.5 years old... it's giving me problem... blue screen problem.. even i reinstalled the computer with a fresh new operating system. guess i'll slowly source which computer i should get next...
other than that... i spent all night long finishing my storybook... "the alchemist" it's not a very long story.. but it's really nice... it tells a story of a boy.... he had a dream about treasure in the pyramids.. but he's from Spain... the story tells his whole journey from spain to the pyramids...
the main message in the story is that, follow the heart, observe omens.... if it's destined to happen, it will happen. regardless it's good or bad.... that boy got robbed 3 times in his journey, loosing everything he had ever earned in his life.... in the end.. he got his treasure.. but it's not in the pyramids..... the universe tells him that he needs to be at the pyramids but his treasure is actually in Spain.... how does that mean ? it means when he travel all the way to the pyramids, he ended up meeting his last robber... and the robber told him that he had a dream about a treasure in spain... the robber is stupid enough not to cross the whole desert to reach his treasure.. but yet the universe leads the boy to pyramids to listen to the robber... and he went all the way back to spain for his treasure.... that's the treasure...
when we stop listening to our heart... our heart will stop telling us what to do... omens will stop appearing...and a human is just a mere human living lives daily without anything special....
i guess what i benefit from the story is that.... i do have to follow my heart.... if it's destined that i'll fail again or get hurt again..... be it... the gods has its own way of showing a person how to lead ones life.... if i avoid... i won't gain anything....and i won't loose anything.. just a plain person...
guess i doesn't really want to be a plain person... i want to be a happy, successful, beloved person for someone.....
who's the someone.... i have no idea.... i don't know when she'll appear... or she is coming.... or whatever is coming is just a test.... i shall listen to my heart... observe omens....
Saturday, June 28, 2008
emptiness strikes again
this is the time i felt empty again...... how do we define empty... i think of this word as a feeling of boredom, and mis orientated....some how at the particular moment i'm wondering what do i want for my life, what shall i do with my life, what's going to happen short term or long term in my life....as an addition, being lonely does enhance the feeling of emptiness.... bored like one kind...
career wise is having a temporary slow down due to waiting for supplier to finish their job, RnD wise slowed down as well due to in search of material. my life.... there are something that bothers me.. rendering me unhappy at certain times....
at this is saturday... and i'm in the office.... with my job slowing down.... the 8 hours in the office is seriously slowwwwww....... saturday blues..... where everyone gone to have fun with friends outside, having a drink under some shades with a few chatty friends... dating with bf/gf... i'm stuck here.. in the office..... slow day.... table cleaining day.... my engineering scrap cleaning day... everything... just wonder how to constantly live my life to the fullest.....
living life to the fullest is good... don't feel lonely at all... even if it's work that occupies most of the time... it's okay.. we know that someday those hard spent time is gonna pay back... but once the work is coming to a slow......have to keep searching things to fill in.. there comes the emptiness... go home... nothing to do..... go out... going out alone meh ? go where ?..... stay in office... sien... ahhhhh and i can't sleep that much also one..... TV.. i dun like.... musics... okay la... loads of CD to listen to... read books... yeah.. still got almost half left only on the novel.... gym... i just came back last night with my ass muscle ache.....fix car.. got nothing to fix.. no plan of spending extra money or extra budget on the car at the moment.... diving.... august....golfing... muscle aching...how come everything just sound like an excuse of not doing anything...... somehow i think chatting over the phone or hanging out with a close friend is a good thing to do at the moment...
sighs.... maybe i'm a little bit tired of yesterday coming back home too late around 2 AM.... thus today kinda woozy.....
career wise is having a temporary slow down due to waiting for supplier to finish their job, RnD wise slowed down as well due to in search of material. my life.... there are something that bothers me.. rendering me unhappy at certain times....
at this is saturday... and i'm in the office.... with my job slowing down.... the 8 hours in the office is seriously slowwwwww....... saturday blues..... where everyone gone to have fun with friends outside, having a drink under some shades with a few chatty friends... dating with bf/gf... i'm stuck here.. in the office..... slow day.... table cleaining day.... my engineering scrap cleaning day... everything... just wonder how to constantly live my life to the fullest.....
living life to the fullest is good... don't feel lonely at all... even if it's work that occupies most of the time... it's okay.. we know that someday those hard spent time is gonna pay back... but once the work is coming to a slow......have to keep searching things to fill in.. there comes the emptiness... go home... nothing to do..... go out... going out alone meh ? go where ?..... stay in office... sien... ahhhhh and i can't sleep that much also one..... TV.. i dun like.... musics... okay la... loads of CD to listen to... read books... yeah.. still got almost half left only on the novel.... gym... i just came back last night with my ass muscle ache.....fix car.. got nothing to fix.. no plan of spending extra money or extra budget on the car at the moment.... diving.... august....golfing... muscle aching...how come everything just sound like an excuse of not doing anything...... somehow i think chatting over the phone or hanging out with a close friend is a good thing to do at the moment...
sighs.... maybe i'm a little bit tired of yesterday coming back home too late around 2 AM.... thus today kinda woozy.....
Friday, June 27, 2008
suffering
i read this phrase out of a very interesting book....
"the suffering from the fear of suffering is greater than from the suffering itself"
this is actually quite true..... let's think it this way, if there's a problem that u need to solve, but you know it's difficult and there might be chance that it will fail. failing the task will hurt urself emotionally and mentally. but..... if u're escaping, or even delaying... the problem still exists. the thing is that you know it exists, but you're not doing anything about it.... it actually stops u from going forward.... thus it's called the pain from the fear of suffering...
make it another scenario, if there's a girl that you potential will fall for her, but yet, you tell yourself that you're not ready for it.... but then... the emotion seems to push u towards the girl's direction and yet you don't know if things will turn out alright or not....that feeling is so bad and it actually haunt one until the end result appears.... thus going ahead, don't stop it... just do it... if it turn out not alright, at least you didn't get the suffer even before then end result is realised. or at least you suffer less than those that had been suffering before the event.
just another babbling :)
"the suffering from the fear of suffering is greater than from the suffering itself"
this is actually quite true..... let's think it this way, if there's a problem that u need to solve, but you know it's difficult and there might be chance that it will fail. failing the task will hurt urself emotionally and mentally. but..... if u're escaping, or even delaying... the problem still exists. the thing is that you know it exists, but you're not doing anything about it.... it actually stops u from going forward.... thus it's called the pain from the fear of suffering...
make it another scenario, if there's a girl that you potential will fall for her, but yet, you tell yourself that you're not ready for it.... but then... the emotion seems to push u towards the girl's direction and yet you don't know if things will turn out alright or not....that feeling is so bad and it actually haunt one until the end result appears.... thus going ahead, don't stop it... just do it... if it turn out not alright, at least you didn't get the suffer even before then end result is realised. or at least you suffer less than those that had been suffering before the event.
just another babbling :)
Thursday, June 26, 2008
here it comes again.....
it's been quite sometime i'm alone... doing things whatever i like... only think about work most of the time.... i guess i got nothing to loose other than my dream of building an empire with my product.
it's not that i was totally into work that i don't have socializing times... i go gym... i go diving... i go socializing... i do go out for some movies with friends.... at times, i do feel lonely.. at times.. i really feel like i want someone to love... to care... am i too free ? maybe :)
so long already... haven't really found anyone that really make me wonder if thing is gonna change.... once in a blue moon it does have the feeling from certain people... but then mostly won't last more than a day...
what am i talking .. nevermind...get back to work,.
it's not that i was totally into work that i don't have socializing times... i go gym... i go diving... i go socializing... i do go out for some movies with friends.... at times, i do feel lonely.. at times.. i really feel like i want someone to love... to care... am i too free ? maybe :)
so long already... haven't really found anyone that really make me wonder if thing is gonna change.... once in a blue moon it does have the feeling from certain people... but then mostly won't last more than a day...
what am i talking .. nevermind...get back to work,.
Jazz night getaway... in my room
this song i didn't realise i had the CD for quite some time... but there's another boring day that i go find some CDs to enjoy... and i found this song... very nice.. no idea who's the singer but it's from a cafe del mar compilation...
it's called someone like you...the lyrics is really really amazing...
I've been searching a long time
For someone exactly like you
I've been travelling all around the world
Waiting for you to come through.
Someone like you makes it all worth while
Someone like you keeps me satisfied.
someone exactly like you.
I've been travellin a hard road
Lookin for someone exactly like you
I've been carryin my heavy load
Waiting for the light to come shining through.
Someone like you makes it all worth while
Someone like you keeps me satisfied.
someone exactly like you.
I've been doin some soul searching
To find out where you're at
Ive been up and down the highway
In all kinds of foreign lands
Someone like you... etc.
I've been all around the world
Marching to the beat of a different drum.
But just lately I have realised
The best is yet to come.
Someone like you... etc.
it's called someone like you...the lyrics is really really amazing...
I've been searching a long time
For someone exactly like you
I've been travelling all around the world
Waiting for you to come through.
Someone like you makes it all worth while
Someone like you keeps me satisfied.
someone exactly like you.
I've been travellin a hard road
Lookin for someone exactly like you
I've been carryin my heavy load
Waiting for the light to come shining through.
Someone like you makes it all worth while
Someone like you keeps me satisfied.
someone exactly like you.
I've been doin some soul searching
To find out where you're at
Ive been up and down the highway
In all kinds of foreign lands
Someone like you... etc.
I've been all around the world
Marching to the beat of a different drum.
But just lately I have realised
The best is yet to come.
Someone like you... etc.
Tuesday, June 17, 2008
sick ??
sighs..... i think i'm gonna fall sick... finally.... been staying strong for a long long time... sick free days for like almost 2 years.... but then i think i'm gonna fall sick this time....
last night i felt seriously weak... skipped my usual gym training.... but i still slept quite late...and in the morning my throat hurts....a little bit light headed.....i guess i'm hit by heatiness..
last night i felt seriously weak... skipped my usual gym training.... but i still slept quite late...and in the morning my throat hurts....a little bit light headed.....i guess i'm hit by heatiness..
Saturday, June 14, 2008
Live posting from eason's concert
Amazingly, for donating god knows what's the amount of money to sze chuan's disaster relief, me and my cousins got more than 10 tickets that cost 400 each to the concert. You can see on my picture how close am i to the stage. I took it from the side while i'm heading for the loo. Although its not as good as jacky cheung's concert as during that time i have a special person to accompany me. but this is not a bad concert at all, musics are nice, the voice is clear. Its held at merdeka stadium. The venue is more cooling than bukit jalil's stadium.
Thursday, June 12, 2008
i found something....
i suddenly realise that my computer will greet me when i step into my room.....
feels like... honey.. you're home..... :) ahahahhahaha
it's actually my bluetooth.... the moment i got into the room, my desktop managed to detect my phone... and then... it'll sound a ring..... pretty loud.... just like someone greet you when u got home... ahahhaha
my future should be like that... at least it's not a sound of computer greeting me... i would love someone to be around when i'm back... a lover.... a human.... regardless i'm back first... or she's back first.... if i'm back first... i'll be the one greeting her....how nice......
feels like... honey.. you're home..... :) ahahahhahaha
it's actually my bluetooth.... the moment i got into the room, my desktop managed to detect my phone... and then... it'll sound a ring..... pretty loud.... just like someone greet you when u got home... ahahhaha
my future should be like that... at least it's not a sound of computer greeting me... i would love someone to be around when i'm back... a lover.... a human.... regardless i'm back first... or she's back first.... if i'm back first... i'll be the one greeting her....how nice......
blogging time....
to all my fans out there (yeah rite.. as if i really got fans)..
it's been some time since i last blog about myself. i've been kinda really occupied by my work.... planning stage are all over.... it's production stage... i need to have a real time simulation of what's important to produce first. those that need extra work... will be done first, then leaving it for 2nd supplier to complete the parts....
currently, the company is going through a harder time, the store needs to be taken back from the tenant, we need to find a way to put our materials, our operation need a larger space.... the remedy.... move..... move to a larger premises. 2 high profile projects are on going, slow government reaction, new factory purchases.... all these going on this same particular year... very tight on cash flow.....
yeah i'm blogging about my work again .. nevermind.... as for myself... nothing much has been changed.... probably less self pitty..... more concentration on my work.... more exercises to make sure my body able to take what it needs to build a bigger empire....
at night, yeah.. emptiness strikes.... not fun at all... although physically tired after a long day of work.... a book is a good way to rest... but i kinda fun doing something new... taking care of people... people that i see everyday online... some people do post their feeling on the internet (MSN).... can say that i'm kay poh.... i do care for all my friends.... something interesting, something that keeps me busy... something that fill up my emptiness :).... of course one day someone would come by and take care of me....but.. till then.... i'll just do whatever that will make me feel good...
feel good is the way to go in life.... of course need money to sustain la... so.. working hard... feeling good.... life is good :) ... probably remaining like this till next chapter of my life...
it's been some time since i last blog about myself. i've been kinda really occupied by my work.... planning stage are all over.... it's production stage... i need to have a real time simulation of what's important to produce first. those that need extra work... will be done first, then leaving it for 2nd supplier to complete the parts....
currently, the company is going through a harder time, the store needs to be taken back from the tenant, we need to find a way to put our materials, our operation need a larger space.... the remedy.... move..... move to a larger premises. 2 high profile projects are on going, slow government reaction, new factory purchases.... all these going on this same particular year... very tight on cash flow.....
yeah i'm blogging about my work again .. nevermind.... as for myself... nothing much has been changed.... probably less self pitty..... more concentration on my work.... more exercises to make sure my body able to take what it needs to build a bigger empire....
at night, yeah.. emptiness strikes.... not fun at all... although physically tired after a long day of work.... a book is a good way to rest... but i kinda fun doing something new... taking care of people... people that i see everyday online... some people do post their feeling on the internet (MSN).... can say that i'm kay poh.... i do care for all my friends.... something interesting, something that keeps me busy... something that fill up my emptiness :).... of course one day someone would come by and take care of me....but.. till then.... i'll just do whatever that will make me feel good...
feel good is the way to go in life.... of course need money to sustain la... so.. working hard... feeling good.... life is good :) ... probably remaining like this till next chapter of my life...
something stupid.....
can't think of anything to write at this hour... tmrw will write something decent... now posting rubbish :)
小学生的造句
1其中
小朋友：我的其中一只左脚受伤了。
老师批语：是蜈蚣吗？
2难过
小朋友：我们家门前有条水沟很难过。
老师批语：老师更难过！
3又····又
小朋友：我的妈妈又矮又高又肥又瘦。
老师批语：的妈妈是变形金刚吗？
4看
小朋友：看什么看！没看过啊？
老师批语：不要再拽了！
5欣欣向荣
小朋友：欣欣向荣荣告白了。
老师批语：连戏剧不要看太多了！
6好吃
小朋友：好吃个屁！
老师批语：······
7天真
小朋友：今天真热。
老师批语：真天真！
8果然
小朋友：昨天我吃水果，然后喝水。
老师批语：是词组，不能分开的。
9况且
小朋友：一列火车经过，况且况且况且况且。
老师批语：我死了算了！
10陆陆续续
小朋友：下班了，爸爸陆陆续续的回家了。
老师批语：到底有几个爸爸？
11先····再····（例题：先吃饭，再洗澡）
小朋友：先生，再见
小学生的造句
1其中
小朋友：我的其中一只左脚受伤了。
老师批语：是蜈蚣吗？
2难过
小朋友：我们家门前有条水沟很难过。
老师批语：老师更难过！
3又····又
小朋友：我的妈妈又矮又高又肥又瘦。
老师批语：的妈妈是变形金刚吗？
4看
小朋友：看什么看！没看过啊？
老师批语：不要再拽了！
5欣欣向荣
小朋友：欣欣向荣荣告白了。
老师批语：连戏剧不要看太多了！
6好吃
小朋友：好吃个屁！
老师批语：······
7天真
小朋友：今天真热。
老师批语：真天真！
8果然
小朋友：昨天我吃水果，然后喝水。
老师批语：是词组，不能分开的。
9况且
小朋友：一列火车经过，况且况且况且况且。
老师批语：我死了算了！
10陆陆续续
小朋友：下班了，爸爸陆陆续续的回家了。
老师批语：到底有几个爸爸？
11先····再····（例题：先吃饭，再洗澡）
小朋友：先生，再见
Friday, May 30, 2008
God at work
This is something interesting....it may have posted a year ago.. but i recently saw it when my friend posted it on my facebook.
God at work :)
God at work :)
Monday, May 19, 2008
cured....by magical hands...
my insomnia had gone away.... for like almost a week already i sleep very well and soundly at night.... not that i snore... but the fact is that i never snore at night....
yeah back to the story... i'm freed from insomnia. don't know what's the cause, but i managed to find out the cure for insomnia.... a good massage is the ultimate cure.... i started with an hour of leg massage after my gym session..... the last time i had my massage was like at least half a year ago... so hell it hurt like mad.... especially my toes.. and especially i'm suffering from insomnia and i go massage....
good thing is that, on the day itself, i managed to sleep... very deeply.... but woke up with a very stiff shoulder.... bad pillow... stupid maid changed the pillow case with a tiny pillow case where my pillow is so huge... these people just doesn't bother to think nicely.... so.. i changed the pillow case and the shoulder felt better. but still having some tension...
then few days later i went over to the massage palour again getting a full body therapy... yes it cost some money.. but at least all my back strains, stiff shoulder and stiff neck... all of them are being massaged away..... like a piece of kobe beef..... nice and tender and light feeling...
from there onwards.... i'm able to sleep nicely, deeply, and doesn't need to wait till late nights only sleep... by 11 something my eyes are so tired.... and i just fall down and sleep....
so..... the key word is.... massage is always good....and make sure it's clean.... not those dirty places that gives additional services... yuck...
yeah back to the story... i'm freed from insomnia. don't know what's the cause, but i managed to find out the cure for insomnia.... a good massage is the ultimate cure.... i started with an hour of leg massage after my gym session..... the last time i had my massage was like at least half a year ago... so hell it hurt like mad.... especially my toes.. and especially i'm suffering from insomnia and i go massage....
good thing is that, on the day itself, i managed to sleep... very deeply.... but woke up with a very stiff shoulder.... bad pillow... stupid maid changed the pillow case with a tiny pillow case where my pillow is so huge... these people just doesn't bother to think nicely.... so.. i changed the pillow case and the shoulder felt better. but still having some tension...
then few days later i went over to the massage palour again getting a full body therapy... yes it cost some money.. but at least all my back strains, stiff shoulder and stiff neck... all of them are being massaged away..... like a piece of kobe beef..... nice and tender and light feeling...
from there onwards.... i'm able to sleep nicely, deeply, and doesn't need to wait till late nights only sleep... by 11 something my eyes are so tired.... and i just fall down and sleep....
so..... the key word is.... massage is always good....and make sure it's clean.... not those dirty places that gives additional services... yuck...
Friday, May 9, 2008
still insomnia....
still insomnia.... is it a sickness for people that's running on high stress level? i seriously have no idea.... i kinda keep finding things to blame... the cars that passes by.... the mattress cover that's in a wrong size, not my usual few designs, the aircon not cold enough....
sometimes i just don't know what's going on... but sometimes i got too tired and i slept easily... like 3 nighs ago... i slept just like that.. till next day 10 AM.. wow.. late for work.. .and 2 nights ago... same situation happened.. probably the body is trying to catch back some rest....
but last night.... slept... really tired.. but after an hour of flipping... the feeling is just really awake.... and then i felt like i slept.. but didn't sleep well... woke up with bad shoulder.... blaming it on the stupid pillow that's stuffed in a smaller size pillow case.. making it too high...
argh... i guess i'll just head for a neck and shoulder massage.... clear some tense on my neck...
btw,,,........ tmrw i'm going to Tiesto in PD..... i remember at least around 7 years ago.. it was a kent event in the infamous club down in town.... it's tiesto.. the moment he started his set..... the lights came on... raid.... those were the times.. my buddies... tmrw i'm witnessing tiesto again....but with a different crowd.... time to partyyyyyyyyyyy
sometimes i just don't know what's going on... but sometimes i got too tired and i slept easily... like 3 nighs ago... i slept just like that.. till next day 10 AM.. wow.. late for work.. .and 2 nights ago... same situation happened.. probably the body is trying to catch back some rest....
but last night.... slept... really tired.. but after an hour of flipping... the feeling is just really awake.... and then i felt like i slept.. but didn't sleep well... woke up with bad shoulder.... blaming it on the stupid pillow that's stuffed in a smaller size pillow case.. making it too high...
argh... i guess i'll just head for a neck and shoulder massage.... clear some tense on my neck...
btw,,,........ tmrw i'm going to Tiesto in PD..... i remember at least around 7 years ago.. it was a kent event in the infamous club down in town.... it's tiesto.. the moment he started his set..... the lights came on... raid.... those were the times.. my buddies... tmrw i'm witnessing tiesto again....but with a different crowd.... time to partyyyyyyyyyyy
Wednesday, April 30, 2008
insomnia......
Insomnia - –noun -- inability to obtain sufficient sleep, esp. when chronic; difficulty in falling or staying asleep; sleeplessness.
ever since my grandfather passed away, i've been strucked with insomnia...why, i don't know, my god mother says probably because that i'm the eldest grandson, expectation from the deceased is high that i can't go around places. but my grandmother says maybe it's that the grandfather misses me and be around me most of the time disturbing the energy flow.
the feeling.... feels like shit... start sleeping around 12 AM.. flipping and jumping around.... until 2 AM.. woke up and surf net.. then go back sleep around 2.30... then fliping and jumping around until 4 AM... woke up watch some series... then 5 AM go back sleep.... and 8 something in the morning time to wake up.... the day is pure crap...it's slow... it's tiring... it's short patiented...
but i found out a best friend that can help me sleep... Carlsberg Special Brew..... strong beer... :)
ever since my grandfather passed away, i've been strucked with insomnia...why, i don't know, my god mother says probably because that i'm the eldest grandson, expectation from the deceased is high that i can't go around places. but my grandmother says maybe it's that the grandfather misses me and be around me most of the time disturbing the energy flow.
the feeling.... feels like shit... start sleeping around 12 AM.. flipping and jumping around.... until 2 AM.. woke up and surf net.. then go back sleep around 2.30... then fliping and jumping around until 4 AM... woke up watch some series... then 5 AM go back sleep.... and 8 something in the morning time to wake up.... the day is pure crap...it's slow... it's tiring... it's short patiented...
but i found out a best friend that can help me sleep... Carlsberg Special Brew..... strong beer... :)
Friday, April 18, 2008
人生的道路。。。
记得那天我们出生，刮刮大叫。数十年后，就躺在床上等待时间到来。我都已经看化了，人生的道路就那么简单，也很快。十六岁那年，想着几时才到十八岁，夜店赌场电玩中心都要十八岁才能进。眨一眨眼，赌场电玩夜店都去到不想去了。今年已经20多岁了，时间好快。
我公公今天去世了，年寿79岁。人生就是那短短的79年。。。真的很短。我们这一代都不知道会耐多久，天天都吞食化学药品，空气肮脏，睡眠不足，生活紧张。。。不知能耐多少年。。我也想耐到80岁。。。
我都看化了，生老病死绝对避免不了，也不必伤心很久。一代推一代，眨下眼就轮到我了。。。最重要活得高兴，活得充实，决不后悔所做的决定。走的时候也比较安心。。。。
大家好好活着吧。。。最重要是会玩，不要到头来什么也还没玩够就走了。。很不值得。。：）
我公公今天去世了，年寿79岁。人生就是那短短的79年。。。真的很短。我们这一代都不知道会耐多久，天天都吞食化学药品，空气肮脏，睡眠不足，生活紧张。。。不知能耐多少年。。我也想耐到80岁。。。
我都看化了，生老病死绝对避免不了，也不必伤心很久。一代推一代，眨下眼就轮到我了。。。最重要活得高兴，活得充实，决不后悔所做的决定。走的时候也比较安心。。。。
大家好好活着吧。。。最重要是会玩，不要到头来什么也还没玩够就走了。。很不值得。。：）
Thursday, April 17, 2008
and then i'm back....from Tenggol island
last weekend was a nice getaway weekend. a group of fellas went to Tenggol Island for diving trip.
where's Tenggol ? people know Redang, Perhentian etc etc big names.. but no one knows where in the world is Tenggol. Tenggol is an island known for divers. it has a beautiful beach but the corals were growing at a very shallow area. after the shallow area, it has a drop of 10 Meters...
it's not a friendly site for kids....
anyway, back to the story... it's a weekend dive... weekend getaway from all the hectic jobs, running around the city.... loud musics, car honks, exhaust notes....plain back to the nature... without air conditioning without fine dining.... wear the same clothes everyday (wet suit)...
it's almost like a virgin island.. even the island has been there for like ages... people go there to dive since the 80's.. but it's still un-touched.... it's only 4 hours away from the big city of KL.
we had fun under the water, we had fun when we were resting, we're loud, we mahjong.... we play cards... everything :) it's another good weekend...
Friday, April 11, 2008
Stranded
Live coverage from dungun. Engine failure. Got stranded on the boat. Luckly the boat stop before leaving the river.
Monday, March 31, 2008
a walk in memory lane
through out my planning of my trip in penang. i never planned a single trip to Sg Ara. nothing to do there.....
but the day before i go back.... i went out with my fren to see the car workshop. the shop is so near to her place..... those roads that i drove pass.... feels like i'm having a vacation in penang to visit her... almost turned into the apartment...... reminds me of so many things...
when i was having a drink... every few minutes i was staring at the apartments....wondering if anyone is up there....is she happy recently.... did she find another guy that treating her well....etc etc etc...
then i head home.... make it simple..... the trip back to KL took me 8 hours.... twice the amount of time.... never been so long on the road before.....got so much time to take photos of my dashboard... the car infront.... the lorry bside me.....
all i get in this trip is serious FATIQUE...
but the day before i go back.... i went out with my fren to see the car workshop. the shop is so near to her place..... those roads that i drove pass.... feels like i'm having a vacation in penang to visit her... almost turned into the apartment...... reminds me of so many things...
when i was having a drink... every few minutes i was staring at the apartments....wondering if anyone is up there....is she happy recently.... did she find another guy that treating her well....etc etc etc...
then i head home.... make it simple..... the trip back to KL took me 8 hours.... twice the amount of time.... never been so long on the road before.....got so much time to take photos of my dashboard... the car infront.... the lorry bside me.....
all i get in this trip is serious FATIQUE...
Friday, March 28, 2008
after so many months
when was the last time i was in penang ? i guess it should be end of november last year 2007...
currently i'm in penang.. logging in @ starbucks E gates.
3 years in penang. all roads are just too familiar to me.. nothing had changed except the government. which doesn't have any affect on me at all at the moment.
why am i in penang? some say i must be missing previous relationship..... maybe that's true in certain point of view. but my main reason of going to penang is to settle the tax issue with the government. my past 2 submission is done in penang... everything is in penang.... and the governments are NOT WIRED... which means in KL can't access my stuff. unless i request it to move to KL... which is i did ask them TODAY... so that i dont' need to travel so far away just to settle the tax...
why tax ? i didn't read the instructions thorough enough... and i over claimed... so.. they are minusing my stuffs here adn there... but i have so much extra in the account.. so... i don't need to pay anything else... yup.. it's settled.... and tmrw will be golf day with my taiwanese friend johnny.
those roads in penang.... nothing is changed except my passenger seat is now empty.... not more liddle beside me when i drive...... that's probably what i missed 2nd when i got to penang.
managed to catch up with my friends from my last work place... had some lunch...
just take it like an off weekend... vacation... but costly vacation due to the reason that i got a speeding summon.....
currently i'm in penang.. logging in @ starbucks E gates.
3 years in penang. all roads are just too familiar to me.. nothing had changed except the government. which doesn't have any affect on me at all at the moment.
why am i in penang? some say i must be missing previous relationship..... maybe that's true in certain point of view. but my main reason of going to penang is to settle the tax issue with the government. my past 2 submission is done in penang... everything is in penang.... and the governments are NOT WIRED... which means in KL can't access my stuff. unless i request it to move to KL... which is i did ask them TODAY... so that i dont' need to travel so far away just to settle the tax...
why tax ? i didn't read the instructions thorough enough... and i over claimed... so.. they are minusing my stuffs here adn there... but i have so much extra in the account.. so... i don't need to pay anything else... yup.. it's settled.... and tmrw will be golf day with my taiwanese friend johnny.
those roads in penang.... nothing is changed except my passenger seat is now empty.... not more liddle beside me when i drive...... that's probably what i missed 2nd when i got to penang.
managed to catch up with my friends from my last work place... had some lunch...
just take it like an off weekend... vacation... but costly vacation due to the reason that i got a speeding summon.....
Thursday, March 27, 2008
no reservation
this word no reservation, reminds me of anthony bourdain in discovery travel and living channel.
it's a show about anthony going places trying foods here and there.
why do i bring this up... today i just watched a movie... downloaded again. not sure it has ever been screen in the cinema in my country. but it's a movie about food as well. staring katherine zeta jones. for those who knows me, i have alot of hots in cooking and eating, that explains my physical size.
that movie is one of the good movies that i watched so far, i've been supplied with almost a huge resource of movies but this one is really a movie that i really enjoyed.. probably it's food related.
it's a relaxing movie, no action, no thinking, no thrailer, just a plain love story that goes very well with food.
yupe, food talks this way.... this goes well with that.... balsamic goes well with garlics.... cheese goes well with panchetta..... :) this movie goes well with someone who loves food like me :)
go download the movie..... it's not a bad show...
it's a show about anthony going places trying foods here and there.
why do i bring this up... today i just watched a movie... downloaded again. not sure it has ever been screen in the cinema in my country. but it's a movie about food as well. staring katherine zeta jones. for those who knows me, i have alot of hots in cooking and eating, that explains my physical size.
that movie is one of the good movies that i watched so far, i've been supplied with almost a huge resource of movies but this one is really a movie that i really enjoyed.. probably it's food related.
it's a relaxing movie, no action, no thinking, no thrailer, just a plain love story that goes very well with food.
yupe, food talks this way.... this goes well with that.... balsamic goes well with garlics.... cheese goes well with panchetta..... :) this movie goes well with someone who loves food like me :)
go download the movie..... it's not a bad show...
Saturday, March 22, 2008
after so long....
after about almost 4 months not contacting her..... finally we talked again... through out those months, i thought that i already put her aside... never wanted to look back... it was a good memory.... it was a good relationship as well but unfortunately.... fate ends it...
when i talked to her again, i don't feel anything, just a tiny bit of nostalgic feeling like old times.... but the problem arise when i started to talk to her.... i have dreams about her... night time dreams.... few days straight down....probably deep in my mind misses her quite alot that i don't realise....
then it's this meal that we suppose to eat.... i don't know why, probably i don't really able to match up with those that's too spontaneous. how do i make it ?..... let's say... when someone got effort to make it a good dinner, trying to make up plans.... but then the other side says we'll see after this meet up that meet up.... and just minutes before the meet up, she came tell u, she's eating with others.... is that call no effort to make it ? i guess it would...or make it this way.. it's in the blood....
but i shouldn't be bothered about it.... if a normal friend, i would have asked them way early if can make it or not... if can't come out.. at least i would have know way early so that i make my other plans.. if even last minute saying not feeling well etc.... i'll just be cool.... why do i still have so much effort on her ? am i still missing her ? or i'm still not moved on yet ?
it's crap to be myself.... empty, not moved on, lonely...hopefully whatever she said to me before it's true that things happen for a reason.. it might be an excuse for her to try something else.. but not for me... not seeing anyone.. trying to reboot my life... hopefully it is really someone else that really came into my life that changes me .... make me happy.... make me believe again....
when i talked to her again, i don't feel anything, just a tiny bit of nostalgic feeling like old times.... but the problem arise when i started to talk to her.... i have dreams about her... night time dreams.... few days straight down....probably deep in my mind misses her quite alot that i don't realise....
then it's this meal that we suppose to eat.... i don't know why, probably i don't really able to match up with those that's too spontaneous. how do i make it ?..... let's say... when someone got effort to make it a good dinner, trying to make up plans.... but then the other side says we'll see after this meet up that meet up.... and just minutes before the meet up, she came tell u, she's eating with others.... is that call no effort to make it ? i guess it would...or make it this way.. it's in the blood....
but i shouldn't be bothered about it.... if a normal friend, i would have asked them way early if can make it or not... if can't come out.. at least i would have know way early so that i make my other plans.. if even last minute saying not feeling well etc.... i'll just be cool.... why do i still have so much effort on her ? am i still missing her ? or i'm still not moved on yet ?
it's crap to be myself.... empty, not moved on, lonely...hopefully whatever she said to me before it's true that things happen for a reason.. it might be an excuse for her to try something else.. but not for me... not seeing anyone.. trying to reboot my life... hopefully it is really someone else that really came into my life that changes me .... make me happy.... make me believe again....
Sunday, March 16, 2008
another week
Another week had gone by.... my supplier/friend that came to malaysia had gone back to taiwan as well. i wasn't a great idea to have 2 week in a row not doing my original task in factory... but it was a fruitful week.
i realised something, i always complained that i'm bored, i have no plans, etc etc etc... but then this 2 weeks really packed with plans... so many that i almost daily sleeping at around 2 AM... waking up the next day for same thing.... it was seriously tiring...
i am currently thinking.... will i have the energy if i wished my days weren't that boring... packed with plans.... seriously think of it... i dun have the energy to do it daily weekly continous like what i did... 1 week is more than tiring enough...
what kind of life do i want ? how do i make my life more fruitful while not complaining boring... also not consuming my energy bar..... how how how ? if there's someone for me to love... that' even better :) at least i don't feel bored even not going out...
what do i want ?.......
i realised something, i always complained that i'm bored, i have no plans, etc etc etc... but then this 2 weeks really packed with plans... so many that i almost daily sleeping at around 2 AM... waking up the next day for same thing.... it was seriously tiring...
i am currently thinking.... will i have the energy if i wished my days weren't that boring... packed with plans.... seriously think of it... i dun have the energy to do it daily weekly continous like what i did... 1 week is more than tiring enough...
what kind of life do i want ? how do i make my life more fruitful while not complaining boring... also not consuming my energy bar..... how how how ? if there's someone for me to love... that' even better :) at least i don't feel bored even not going out...
what do i want ?.......
Friday, March 7, 2008
Back from Taiwan
Finally, i'm back from Taiwan.... although the trip is short, but it's a relaxing and full of things to learn. my purpose there is to visit my supplier. as some of you know that my new product is a heavy investment from my company, thus there is not room for error.
my visit in Taiwan included 3 nights in Taipei and 2 nights in Tainan. 3 nights in taipei i stayed in some pretty hip hotel down in the middle of Taipei. while 2 nights in Tainan i stayed at a kinky Motel. why do i say kinky? check out my facebook for more pictures :)
this trip is a life changing trip for me. why do i say that, i met different people make me take life differently. most important, my supplier became my fren... the moment i picked me up from airport i know something is going easy between me and him. i was brought to places on his limited Subaru Imprezza STI 7 Spec C. this is limited in Taiwan. only 60 were sold legally locally in taiwan. of course there are people importing JDM models. but they are seriously rare.
the very important thing that i learn in Taiwan is that Taiwanese people does business very heavily rely on relationship. even my volume was little, my suppliers all treated me well, send me around and treated me dinner. fine dining as well... more pictures in my face book.
i did played golf in Taipei as well. the golf course sparked up alot of memories from the past.. past as in way back when i was studying in Melbourne. it was cooling, it was windy, the wind is strong enough to stop my ball in the middle of the air.
my friend/supplier good enough to bring me along to meet his fren, pretty enjoyable night i have in taipei before i leave the next day very very early flight that i have to hop on the taxi by morning 5.30AM.
normally i go taipei, i would shop for Mister Donut, i would shop at CD shops where the CDs are so cheap compared to here, also the shopping centre pastries are so good that not even Sun Moulin in Isetan can't match up. but all these i missed it due to my tight schedule. it was a good experience though.
hope i can get there again someday. :)
my visit in Taiwan included 3 nights in Taipei and 2 nights in Tainan. 3 nights in taipei i stayed in some pretty hip hotel down in the middle of Taipei. while 2 nights in Tainan i stayed at a kinky Motel. why do i say kinky? check out my facebook for more pictures :)
this trip is a life changing trip for me. why do i say that, i met different people make me take life differently. most important, my supplier became my fren... the moment i picked me up from airport i know something is going easy between me and him. i was brought to places on his limited Subaru Imprezza STI 7 Spec C. this is limited in Taiwan. only 60 were sold legally locally in taiwan. of course there are people importing JDM models. but they are seriously rare.
the very important thing that i learn in Taiwan is that Taiwanese people does business very heavily rely on relationship. even my volume was little, my suppliers all treated me well, send me around and treated me dinner. fine dining as well... more pictures in my face book.
i did played golf in Taipei as well. the golf course sparked up alot of memories from the past.. past as in way back when i was studying in Melbourne. it was cooling, it was windy, the wind is strong enough to stop my ball in the middle of the air.
my friend/supplier good enough to bring me along to meet his fren, pretty enjoyable night i have in taipei before i leave the next day very very early flight that i have to hop on the taxi by morning 5.30AM.
normally i go taipei, i would shop for Mister Donut, i would shop at CD shops where the CDs are so cheap compared to here, also the shopping centre pastries are so good that not even Sun Moulin in Isetan can't match up. but all these i missed it due to my tight schedule. it was a good experience though.
hope i can get there again someday. :)
Friday, February 29, 2008
My audio system
In one of my post i mentioned my system and this is the picture i took using my phone. And i'm posting it using my phone as well. Interesting feature that now only i start using it even i got my phone a year ago. :-)
Tuesday, February 26, 2008
10 DOs
DO
1) drink more water, drink more often
2) dry up hair before sleeping
3) apply fu bao on head to reduce itch
4) trim nails correctly, get a nail clipper
5) stretch shoulder when working long hours
6) exercise frequently to increase stamina and health
7) change to a dry clothe after exercise to prevent getting sick
8) use the ikea lights, read books in a bright and seateds up position
9) apply cream on in-grown nails
10) learn to delegate more........
1) drink more water, drink more often
2) dry up hair before sleeping
3) apply fu bao on head to reduce itch
4) trim nails correctly, get a nail clipper
5) stretch shoulder when working long hours
6) exercise frequently to increase stamina and health
7) change to a dry clothe after exercise to prevent getting sick
8) use the ikea lights, read books in a bright and seateds up position
9) apply cream on in-grown nails
10) learn to delegate more........
Thursday, February 21, 2008
thursday morning
thursday morning, today, is the day i need to wake up earlier as i have a training at 9.30AM in my office on the CNC equipment.
i just don't know why suddenly when i woke up... i felt the emptiness again, maybe i still not used to being single again..... i have that feeling when i woke up... i felt like i want to talk to someone i really love, someone like my little.... wanna know how's her sleep.... but when i feel like talking to someone like that..... my brain can't think of anyone to talk to.... it's the emptiness that something i do everyday morning last time... but now still wanna do it just don't know who to do it to....
the feeling is kinda sucky.... the emptiness......
just switch on my few thousand bucks worth of my audio system.... and the emptiness is being rushed away.... or at least temporary suppressed...
time to get ready and head to office
i just don't know why suddenly when i woke up... i felt the emptiness again, maybe i still not used to being single again..... i have that feeling when i woke up... i felt like i want to talk to someone i really love, someone like my little.... wanna know how's her sleep.... but when i feel like talking to someone like that..... my brain can't think of anyone to talk to.... it's the emptiness that something i do everyday morning last time... but now still wanna do it just don't know who to do it to....
the feeling is kinda sucky.... the emptiness......
just switch on my few thousand bucks worth of my audio system.... and the emptiness is being rushed away.... or at least temporary suppressed...
time to get ready and head to office
Wednesday, February 20, 2008
my CD player
have you heard before CD player that required to be Run in... just like those new cars ?
remember when you bought your new car, you need to travel around the town.. and not to stress the car for 1000 KM then bring back for service.. that's called un in....
my CD player needs run in... after 4 days of consequtive playing repeating the whole CD, change different CD, different type of music.....finally the CD player finished the run in process.
why run in on CD player? they say it's to feed the electronics inside the CD player with current and different frequency.. so that when they discharge and charge, they are easier to charge up and discharge... same goes to the IC as well... get warmed up and get the transformer to build up current easier....
the result...... the music came out really really really clear... very very very clear... some of the people only think CD player only mar.. all CD player also play same CD one... but i doubt that.... bbefore run in.. my CD player plays music quite flat....after run in... the pitches are very clear, throat note got cleared up... no more muffling sound .... and the music is flow through body.. instead of normal speaker you hear the sound at the speaker and widely spread....
what's the CD player i bought ? it's a Marantz CD player....CD6002, paired with my 4 year old NAD C420 integrated Amp and my Monitor Audio Bronze series.
remember when you bought your new car, you need to travel around the town.. and not to stress the car for 1000 KM then bring back for service.. that's called un in....
my CD player needs run in... after 4 days of consequtive playing repeating the whole CD, change different CD, different type of music.....finally the CD player finished the run in process.
why run in on CD player? they say it's to feed the electronics inside the CD player with current and different frequency.. so that when they discharge and charge, they are easier to charge up and discharge... same goes to the IC as well... get warmed up and get the transformer to build up current easier....
the result...... the music came out really really really clear... very very very clear... some of the people only think CD player only mar.. all CD player also play same CD one... but i doubt that.... bbefore run in.. my CD player plays music quite flat....after run in... the pitches are very clear, throat note got cleared up... no more muffling sound .... and the music is flow through body.. instead of normal speaker you hear the sound at the speaker and widely spread....
what's the CD player i bought ? it's a Marantz CD player....CD6002, paired with my 4 year old NAD C420 integrated Amp and my Monitor Audio Bronze series.
Monday, February 18, 2008
working lor...
since last thursday.... started working already..totally difficult to get my lazy ass up the bed as 90% of my time during chinese new year i slept late and woke up late... around 9.30 AM only eyes open....
today finally got time to send my car to fix. the mechanic is scratching head regarding the symptom of my car. doesn't match those that normally failed.... i left my car with them to troubleshoot... it's dangerous and embarasing to drive out in this condition where anytime i need to pop the hood to add water.
today also learned the new CNC's programming code... it's interesting.... amazingly simple to use as well. whole day been engaged with training. nothing else to do...
days counting to get my bite of "soft and bouncy"....... yeah... it's my blog title... it's something that little used to ask me guess.... it's Mister Donut... available in thailand and Taiwan. i'll be heading to taiwan on the 2nd of March for 5 nights only... business trip... going alone... :(
going there is gonna really really spark up some beautiful memories that me and her once step our foot to the beautiful island of Taiwan. probably will dine at those restaurants that we used to eat as well... "ding tai feng" !!!! or california kitchen... walk the night market... wahhh i where got so much time....
here i come... amazing taiwan.........
today finally got time to send my car to fix. the mechanic is scratching head regarding the symptom of my car. doesn't match those that normally failed.... i left my car with them to troubleshoot... it's dangerous and embarasing to drive out in this condition where anytime i need to pop the hood to add water.
today also learned the new CNC's programming code... it's interesting.... amazingly simple to use as well. whole day been engaged with training. nothing else to do...
days counting to get my bite of "soft and bouncy"....... yeah... it's my blog title... it's something that little used to ask me guess.... it's Mister Donut... available in thailand and Taiwan. i'll be heading to taiwan on the 2nd of March for 5 nights only... business trip... going alone... :(
going there is gonna really really spark up some beautiful memories that me and her once step our foot to the beautiful island of Taiwan. probably will dine at those restaurants that we used to eat as well... "ding tai feng" !!!! or california kitchen... walk the night market... wahhh i where got so much time....
here i come... amazing taiwan.........
Monday, February 11, 2008
monday....still chinese new year ?
it's monday..... still chinese new year.... most of the guys out there already working... i'm still not working yet... i start work on the 6th day of Chinese new year.. basically wednesday.
interesting part is that... on the 2nd day evening i give it shot called her... wahhhh she picked up the phone.... but it's kinda short as usual.. she's gambling... and at that spark moment she got blackjack.... then i also dun wanna disturb too much.... probably people will think she's wierd not picking up phone...... then today.... she's not picking up already.. believe she had gone back to penang.... continued to ignore me.
my car engine blew.... the water coolant seal is gone... water going into the engine.... coming out from the exhaust.....and it wasn't supposed to be like that until another 2 years.... seems like mine have a pre-mature failure of the O rings..... my Apex seal didn't go... i still hear a very solid note from my exhaust.. but water is loosing.. coming out from my exhaust.... which is also a rebuild.......... this round never trust backyard technologies... i'll use back Mazda OEM or recomended by Japanese rebuilders.
interesting part is that... on the 2nd day evening i give it shot called her... wahhhh she picked up the phone.... but it's kinda short as usual.. she's gambling... and at that spark moment she got blackjack.... then i also dun wanna disturb too much.... probably people will think she's wierd not picking up phone...... then today.... she's not picking up already.. believe she had gone back to penang.... continued to ignore me.
my car engine blew.... the water coolant seal is gone... water going into the engine.... coming out from the exhaust.....and it wasn't supposed to be like that until another 2 years.... seems like mine have a pre-mature failure of the O rings..... my Apex seal didn't go... i still hear a very solid note from my exhaust.. but water is loosing.. coming out from my exhaust.... which is also a rebuild.......... this round never trust backyard technologies... i'll use back Mazda OEM or recomended by Japanese rebuilders.
Friday, February 8, 2008
2nd day of chinese new year
somehow, it's chinese new year again.. and this year chinese new year isn't like those in the past...
when i was small i used to be very happy during chinese new year... the crowd, the joy, the angpow, the firecrackers, everything seemed to be very fun and joyful and alive...but this year...it seemed to be so down...so quiet... so boring... i even heard people saying they hate chinese new year. they say also it's really boring.
for the pass 2 years, i was with Sweeney, now i mention her name... it was my most wonderful time ever so far i'm alive....previous post i was trying to hide her name and not to mention anything about the real person but somehow she doesn't really care nowadays. she doesn't respond to me, it's like totally disappeared from my life leaving all the memories behind.
yeah 2 years back i was with her going to her granny's place for chinese new year, or even going over to her place to hang out... play rummy etc... at least there are things to do.. this year i have really nothing left... nothing to do... nothing to play with... the roads are empty.. am i supposed to bring my car out for a spin to burn some petrols.... this chinese new year is just plain boring.... and it's the 2nd day only...
i really wished to go diving at tioman with 2 of my friends but unfortunately, if i'm the only one going, i'll be really like a lamp post, staying in the room myself... driving all the way to mersing myself... do i really need to be up to that extend?... and the 3rd day Bryan wants to do something.. he's starting to get bored as well i thinkkkk... the 4th day it's either go diving or go join Dennis an the group to get drunk in the middle of the afternoon visitting other car members...
back to basic... it's 2nd day and i'm really starting to feel really bored...if sweeney is still around with me, i would have gone to the granny's place... do some gambling, some eating... just sitting around with her is better than now doing nothing... rotting at home....
let's rot till tmrw........
when i was small i used to be very happy during chinese new year... the crowd, the joy, the angpow, the firecrackers, everything seemed to be very fun and joyful and alive...but this year...it seemed to be so down...so quiet... so boring... i even heard people saying they hate chinese new year. they say also it's really boring.
for the pass 2 years, i was with Sweeney, now i mention her name... it was my most wonderful time ever so far i'm alive....previous post i was trying to hide her name and not to mention anything about the real person but somehow she doesn't really care nowadays. she doesn't respond to me, it's like totally disappeared from my life leaving all the memories behind.
yeah 2 years back i was with her going to her granny's place for chinese new year, or even going over to her place to hang out... play rummy etc... at least there are things to do.. this year i have really nothing left... nothing to do... nothing to play with... the roads are empty.. am i supposed to bring my car out for a spin to burn some petrols.... this chinese new year is just plain boring.... and it's the 2nd day only...
i really wished to go diving at tioman with 2 of my friends but unfortunately, if i'm the only one going, i'll be really like a lamp post, staying in the room myself... driving all the way to mersing myself... do i really need to be up to that extend?... and the 3rd day Bryan wants to do something.. he's starting to get bored as well i thinkkkk... the 4th day it's either go diving or go join Dennis an the group to get drunk in the middle of the afternoon visitting other car members...
back to basic... it's 2nd day and i'm really starting to feel really bored...if sweeney is still around with me, i would have gone to the granny's place... do some gambling, some eating... just sitting around with her is better than now doing nothing... rotting at home....
let's rot till tmrw........
Wednesday, February 6, 2008
the day before chinese new year
so.. it's the day before chinese new year... i have no idea what to do yet... but i got an invitation to Pulau Tioman for a 2 days dive... interesting plan.. fits right in my very empty schedule.
ahahahah seems like i found my thing to kill my spare time....
i have a choice of going to track day on the sunday, going to Tioman to dive on sunday .. or going to visit a few friends from JSOC on sunday... hmmmmmmm which should i choose....
ahahahah seems like i found my thing to kill my spare time....
i have a choice of going to track day on the sunday, going to Tioman to dive on sunday .. or going to visit a few friends from JSOC on sunday... hmmmmmmm which should i choose....
Saturday, February 2, 2008
Tomorrow is my birthday.... what's the plan for me? i have seriously no idea.... no more "little" for me.... no one buying gift for me... probably just a couple of friends that's going out for a drink is gonna have some great time with me...
somehow, if she's still around me, i rather not to have some dark, noisy place, drinking sinful alcohol drinks that damages body and mind.... but now she's not here anymore, it will be better to do something instead of just staying alone....
staying alone in the room sucks to the max.... it makes people feel like there's nothing else in the world.... i have to go out... i have to go do something.....getting drunk, vomit the whole world, hang over... i hope not that extend... the next day i have a pool session of diving to try on new gears....i don't wanna sink to the bottom of the pool and ended up waking up in a hospital :)
just a couple of lamborghini on fire will do :)... have to be early else how in the world i can get home and sleep wake up at 9 AM next sunday morning... wahhhhhh pretty hectic.. luckly i'm not working on monday...
monday is shopping day for me..... time to get some clothes... thanks to my "little" that bought me Jaspal clothes.. they really look great.... somehow there's a shop in Pavillion that sells them... i may go in and check out if the design is okay or not... shopping day......
oh yeah.. did i mentioned i put in a bucket seat in my car..... everytime after driving it... got lower back ache.... it's pretty tough on the body.. but once u sat in... you'll be like wahhhhhhh it feels great... the handling feels great... i'm invisible... i'm fast.... i'm stable bwahahahahah
anyway... still considering the seat....
somehow, if she's still around me, i rather not to have some dark, noisy place, drinking sinful alcohol drinks that damages body and mind.... but now she's not here anymore, it will be better to do something instead of just staying alone....
staying alone in the room sucks to the max.... it makes people feel like there's nothing else in the world.... i have to go out... i have to go do something.....getting drunk, vomit the whole world, hang over... i hope not that extend... the next day i have a pool session of diving to try on new gears....i don't wanna sink to the bottom of the pool and ended up waking up in a hospital :)
just a couple of lamborghini on fire will do :)... have to be early else how in the world i can get home and sleep wake up at 9 AM next sunday morning... wahhhhhh pretty hectic.. luckly i'm not working on monday...
monday is shopping day for me..... time to get some clothes... thanks to my "little" that bought me Jaspal clothes.. they really look great.... somehow there's a shop in Pavillion that sells them... i may go in and check out if the design is okay or not... shopping day......
oh yeah.. did i mentioned i put in a bucket seat in my car..... everytime after driving it... got lower back ache.... it's pretty tough on the body.. but once u sat in... you'll be like wahhhhhhh it feels great... the handling feels great... i'm invisible... i'm fast.... i'm stable bwahahahahah
anyway... still considering the seat....
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