2nd day of chinese new year

somehow, it's chinese new year again.. and this year chinese new year isn't like those in the past...

when i was small i used to be very happy during chinese new year... the crowd, the joy, the angpow, the firecrackers, everything seemed to be very fun and joyful and alive...but this year...it seemed to be so down...so quiet... so boring... i even heard people saying they hate chinese new year. they say also it's really boring.

for the pass 2 years, i was with Sweeney, now i mention her name... it was my most wonderful time ever so far i'm alive....previous post i was trying to hide her name and not to mention anything about the real person but somehow she doesn't really care nowadays. she doesn't respond to me, it's like totally disappeared from my life leaving all the memories behind.

yeah 2 years back i was with her going to her granny's place for chinese new year, or even going over to her place to hang out... play rummy etc... at least there are things to do.. this year i have really nothing left... nothing to do... nothing to play with... the roads are empty.. am i supposed to bring my car out for a spin to burn some petrols.... this chinese new year is just plain boring.... and it's the 2nd day only...

i really wished to go diving at tioman with 2 of my friends but unfortunately, if i'm the only one going, i'll be really like a lamp post, staying in the room myself... driving all the way to mersing myself... do i really need to be up to that extend?... and the 3rd day Bryan wants to do something.. he's starting to get bored as well i thinkkkk... the 4th day it's either go diving or go join Dennis an the group to get drunk in the middle of the afternoon visitting other car members...

back to basic... it's 2nd day and i'm really starting to feel really bored...if sweeney is still around with me, i would have gone to the granny's place... do some gambling, some eating... just sitting around with her is better than now doing nothing... rotting at home....

let's rot till tmrw........