this is the time i felt empty again...... how do we define empty... i think of this word as a feeling of boredom, and mis orientated....some how at the particular moment i'm wondering what do i want for my life, what shall i do with my life, what's going to happen short term or long term in my life....as an addition, being lonely does enhance the feeling of emptiness.... bored like one kind...
career wise is having a temporary slow down due to waiting for supplier to finish their job, RnD wise slowed down as well due to in search of material. my life.... there are something that bothers me.. rendering me unhappy at certain times....
at this is saturday... and i'm in the office.... with my job slowing down.... the 8 hours in the office is seriously slowwwwww....... saturday blues..... where everyone gone to have fun with friends outside, having a drink under some shades with a few chatty friends... dating with bf/gf... i'm stuck here.. in the office..... slow day.... table cleaining day.... my engineering scrap cleaning day... everything... just wonder how to constantly live my life to the fullest.....
living life to the fullest is good... don't feel lonely at all... even if it's work that occupies most of the time... it's okay.. we know that someday those hard spent time is gonna pay back... but once the work is coming to a slow......have to keep searching things to fill in.. there comes the emptiness... go home... nothing to do..... go out... going out alone meh ? go where ?..... stay in office... sien... ahhhhh and i can't sleep that much also one..... TV.. i dun like.... musics... okay la... loads of CD to listen to... read books... yeah.. still got almost half left only on the novel.... gym... i just came back last night with my ass muscle ache.....fix car.. got nothing to fix.. no plan of spending extra money or extra budget on the car at the moment.... diving.... august....golfing... muscle aching...how come everything just sound like an excuse of not doing anything...... somehow i think chatting over the phone or hanging out with a close friend is a good thing to do at the moment...
sighs.... maybe i'm a little bit tired of yesterday coming back home too late around 2 AM.... thus today kinda woozy.....
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