what do i mean invisibility ? i'm not refering in work or anything... although in work, it seemed to be not so good because promotion or extra bonus or any good stuff will not end up on your hand....
the invisibility that i'm refering is stress. people nowadays in the city life are facing huge stress on work or on personal life. that's the price to pay for the ever evolving life of KL people.
i'm suspecting myself to be affected by some invisible stress. it's invisible, you don't feel it. last time when i was working back in intel... yeah at certain time, i can feel that i'm seriously stressed, short of breath, lack of concentration.
the last sunday, after i came back from hang out, from playing with fire arm..full of adrenaline... and i felt so blardy tired... but then the mind is actually spinning at an infinite speed... no idea what's it spinning for.. just like when u got a computer that's constantly crunching HDD but you're not doing anything.... that's the time when you suspect it's being infected by malware or so called worm.
then on the day, i was looking for alot of diffferent food to eat... keep eating only.. i have no idea why, i wasn't hungry.. just a craving for food... so difficult i work hard in the gym to be at this shape of body.. but then i don't wanna waste all my effort... i guess i'm on some invisible stress, no idea what am i stressing on...
even now... mood swing again... terrible me... what am i stressing on... i just sound like a cunt only... and i'm darn un happy about everything.....
i want to break away from all the invisible stress that's affecting me....
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