Wednesday, January 30, 2008

let go everything.......

我把自己关起来 只留下一个阳台 每当天黑推开城门 对着夜幕发呆看着往事 一幕一幕 再次演出你我的爱

我把电视机打开 听着别人的对白 也许那些故事 可以给我一个交代你要的爱 我学不来 眼睁睁看情变坏 人怔怔看情感慨

不能给你未来我还你现在 安静结束也是另一种对待当眼泪流下来 伤已超载 分开也是另一种明白我给你最后的疼爱 是手放开 不要一张双人床中间隔着一片海

感情的污点就留给时间慢慢漂白 把爱收进胸前左边口袋最后的疼爱 是手放开 不想用言语拉扯所以选择不责怪

感情就像候车月台 有人走 有人来 我的心是一个站牌 写着等待

我把收音机打开 听着别人的失败 哽咽的声音仿佛诉说着相同悲哀你的依赖 还在胸怀 我无法轻易推开 我无法随便走开感情中专心的人容易被伤害

Tuesday, January 15, 2008

orchestra night January 2008

on the 12th night of January 2008, it's the day that i meet her again. it is a friendly hang out. it's been 1 month plus since i last see her. and it's been 2 months since the break off...

the night of the orchestra is exceptionally beautiful. due to the reason that the attire must be lounge suit or batik, everyone is compulsory of dressing up for the night. the night's performance is Rachmaninov's Piano Concerto No.1.

this beautiful night, i wore the Jaspal Shirt she bought for me, the CK Pants she bought and my own CK beige jacket. wherelse she wore a classy black dress. it's been 1 month plus since i last see her, she became more and more beautiful. i'm not sure if it's i'm missing her badly or been some time since i last see her... but no matter what, she's always beautiful in my heart.

the dinner ended up at Ozeki, eating Kobe Beef, new style sushi, and etc.... she mentioned to me that she will really miss the time adventuring food with me... i know in my heart that she is going to miss me as well. but her decision she won't change... that night, she did it again calling me the way she call me all the time... the feeling is really rushing in again.. am i wrong for asking her out ? i don't know... but the feeling is really great.... the memories are too good to be forgotten.

the night really sparked my mind that it's impossible that i could forget her or just put those memories aside. i may always wander around the memories myself. i'm trying myself not to bug her.... live my life, miss her my own way... if there's anything could stop me from doing so, it's either i met another angel that ease my pain or she came back and ease my pain.... for this year i will concentrate on my career... in return i don't only hope for money.. money is most of the default return for working hard.. but what i really pray hard and hope for is i could see her smile again, turtle me in the morning, trying good food as we live and grow old.....

Wednesday, January 9, 2008

New year trip

Fresh new 2008 year, time to really move on.... but although it's time to move on, yet it's not as easy as everyone says..... everyone will say time will heal everything.... how i wish i can forward wind the time.... until i heal it...

this actually reminds me of the movie "click". a guy that forward wind the life that he doesn't really like.... if i were to forward the healing time of mine, what will i miss ? possibly that i might miss someone next that might fill her space making me happy? miss some important time of my life? i guess i would just forget the idea of fast forwarding... must well just enjoy the healing time... heck.. it doesn't feel good at all the healing progress....infact it feels like shite....and i hate it...

anyway, it's new year yeah i went to Sipadan Island for my diving before it's destroyed by brainless politicians.... although certain part already destroyed when i think about it 2 years ago i went for the snorkling...

all i can say about the trip is magnificiently beautiful....if those who wonder how beautiful is beautiful.... there are a few things that u can do...

1) get open water license to dive
2) save money for the trip (quite alot)
3) plan way ahead with group
4) pray for the days u travel is red hot sunny day
5) enjoy.. take alot of photos