dream is a very important thing for a person.... a dream is not actually something that comes at night... they have day dreaming.... night dreaming.... and they have a vision dreaming....
dream is not actually something that it won't happen... it's something that hint you about a thing in life that's going to happen... there exist a dream decipher that tells what those those dream is about....
i have a dream... it's not something that comes at night..... it's not something that show up in my mind without myself noticing it... my dream is something i wanted my life to happen.... my dream is related to my life..... i dream of a someone that will be a very good company to me... as that someone is really worth me sacrificing for.... someone that won't stop their man as he go searches his destiny... that is what a true love is .....
Tuesday, July 1, 2008
Monday, June 30, 2008
Sunday night
Sunday night is the night that i felt bored.. although the whole afternoon i was having fun doing things that what i do best and what i'm interest the most.... cars again :) with my friend.
night time... i ended up trying to save my computer from going total break down... it had served me well since early 2004. till now... it's 4.5 years old... it's giving me problem... blue screen problem.. even i reinstalled the computer with a fresh new operating system. guess i'll slowly source which computer i should get next...
other than that... i spent all night long finishing my storybook... "the alchemist" it's not a very long story.. but it's really nice... it tells a story of a boy.... he had a dream about treasure in the pyramids.. but he's from Spain... the story tells his whole journey from spain to the pyramids...
the main message in the story is that, follow the heart, observe omens.... if it's destined to happen, it will happen. regardless it's good or bad.... that boy got robbed 3 times in his journey, loosing everything he had ever earned in his life.... in the end.. he got his treasure.. but it's not in the pyramids..... the universe tells him that he needs to be at the pyramids but his treasure is actually in Spain.... how does that mean ? it means when he travel all the way to the pyramids, he ended up meeting his last robber... and the robber told him that he had a dream about a treasure in spain... the robber is stupid enough not to cross the whole desert to reach his treasure.. but yet the universe leads the boy to pyramids to listen to the robber... and he went all the way back to spain for his treasure.... that's the treasure...
when we stop listening to our heart... our heart will stop telling us what to do... omens will stop appearing...and a human is just a mere human living lives daily without anything special....
i guess what i benefit from the story is that.... i do have to follow my heart.... if it's destined that i'll fail again or get hurt again..... be it... the gods has its own way of showing a person how to lead ones life.... if i avoid... i won't gain anything....and i won't loose anything.. just a plain person...
guess i doesn't really want to be a plain person... i want to be a happy, successful, beloved person for someone.....
who's the someone.... i have no idea.... i don't know when she'll appear... or she is coming.... or whatever is coming is just a test.... i shall listen to my heart... observe omens....
night time... i ended up trying to save my computer from going total break down... it had served me well since early 2004. till now... it's 4.5 years old... it's giving me problem... blue screen problem.. even i reinstalled the computer with a fresh new operating system. guess i'll slowly source which computer i should get next...
other than that... i spent all night long finishing my storybook... "the alchemist" it's not a very long story.. but it's really nice... it tells a story of a boy.... he had a dream about treasure in the pyramids.. but he's from Spain... the story tells his whole journey from spain to the pyramids...
the main message in the story is that, follow the heart, observe omens.... if it's destined to happen, it will happen. regardless it's good or bad.... that boy got robbed 3 times in his journey, loosing everything he had ever earned in his life.... in the end.. he got his treasure.. but it's not in the pyramids..... the universe tells him that he needs to be at the pyramids but his treasure is actually in Spain.... how does that mean ? it means when he travel all the way to the pyramids, he ended up meeting his last robber... and the robber told him that he had a dream about a treasure in spain... the robber is stupid enough not to cross the whole desert to reach his treasure.. but yet the universe leads the boy to pyramids to listen to the robber... and he went all the way back to spain for his treasure.... that's the treasure...
when we stop listening to our heart... our heart will stop telling us what to do... omens will stop appearing...and a human is just a mere human living lives daily without anything special....
i guess what i benefit from the story is that.... i do have to follow my heart.... if it's destined that i'll fail again or get hurt again..... be it... the gods has its own way of showing a person how to lead ones life.... if i avoid... i won't gain anything....and i won't loose anything.. just a plain person...
guess i doesn't really want to be a plain person... i want to be a happy, successful, beloved person for someone.....
who's the someone.... i have no idea.... i don't know when she'll appear... or she is coming.... or whatever is coming is just a test.... i shall listen to my heart... observe omens....
Saturday, June 28, 2008
emptiness strikes again
this is the time i felt empty again...... how do we define empty... i think of this word as a feeling of boredom, and mis orientated....some how at the particular moment i'm wondering what do i want for my life, what shall i do with my life, what's going to happen short term or long term in my life....as an addition, being lonely does enhance the feeling of emptiness.... bored like one kind...
career wise is having a temporary slow down due to waiting for supplier to finish their job, RnD wise slowed down as well due to in search of material. my life.... there are something that bothers me.. rendering me unhappy at certain times....
at this is saturday... and i'm in the office.... with my job slowing down.... the 8 hours in the office is seriously slowwwwww....... saturday blues..... where everyone gone to have fun with friends outside, having a drink under some shades with a few chatty friends... dating with bf/gf... i'm stuck here.. in the office..... slow day.... table cleaining day.... my engineering scrap cleaning day... everything... just wonder how to constantly live my life to the fullest.....
living life to the fullest is good... don't feel lonely at all... even if it's work that occupies most of the time... it's okay.. we know that someday those hard spent time is gonna pay back... but once the work is coming to a slow......have to keep searching things to fill in.. there comes the emptiness... go home... nothing to do..... go out... going out alone meh ? go where ?..... stay in office... sien... ahhhhh and i can't sleep that much also one..... TV.. i dun like.... musics... okay la... loads of CD to listen to... read books... yeah.. still got almost half left only on the novel.... gym... i just came back last night with my ass muscle ache.....fix car.. got nothing to fix.. no plan of spending extra money or extra budget on the car at the moment.... diving.... august....golfing... muscle aching...how come everything just sound like an excuse of not doing anything...... somehow i think chatting over the phone or hanging out with a close friend is a good thing to do at the moment...
sighs.... maybe i'm a little bit tired of yesterday coming back home too late around 2 AM.... thus today kinda woozy.....
career wise is having a temporary slow down due to waiting for supplier to finish their job, RnD wise slowed down as well due to in search of material. my life.... there are something that bothers me.. rendering me unhappy at certain times....
at this is saturday... and i'm in the office.... with my job slowing down.... the 8 hours in the office is seriously slowwwwww....... saturday blues..... where everyone gone to have fun with friends outside, having a drink under some shades with a few chatty friends... dating with bf/gf... i'm stuck here.. in the office..... slow day.... table cleaining day.... my engineering scrap cleaning day... everything... just wonder how to constantly live my life to the fullest.....
living life to the fullest is good... don't feel lonely at all... even if it's work that occupies most of the time... it's okay.. we know that someday those hard spent time is gonna pay back... but once the work is coming to a slow......have to keep searching things to fill in.. there comes the emptiness... go home... nothing to do..... go out... going out alone meh ? go where ?..... stay in office... sien... ahhhhh and i can't sleep that much also one..... TV.. i dun like.... musics... okay la... loads of CD to listen to... read books... yeah.. still got almost half left only on the novel.... gym... i just came back last night with my ass muscle ache.....fix car.. got nothing to fix.. no plan of spending extra money or extra budget on the car at the moment.... diving.... august....golfing... muscle aching...how come everything just sound like an excuse of not doing anything...... somehow i think chatting over the phone or hanging out with a close friend is a good thing to do at the moment...
sighs.... maybe i'm a little bit tired of yesterday coming back home too late around 2 AM.... thus today kinda woozy.....
Friday, June 27, 2008
suffering
i read this phrase out of a very interesting book....
"the suffering from the fear of suffering is greater than from the suffering itself"
this is actually quite true..... let's think it this way, if there's a problem that u need to solve, but you know it's difficult and there might be chance that it will fail. failing the task will hurt urself emotionally and mentally. but..... if u're escaping, or even delaying... the problem still exists. the thing is that you know it exists, but you're not doing anything about it.... it actually stops u from going forward.... thus it's called the pain from the fear of suffering...
make it another scenario, if there's a girl that you potential will fall for her, but yet, you tell yourself that you're not ready for it.... but then... the emotion seems to push u towards the girl's direction and yet you don't know if things will turn out alright or not....that feeling is so bad and it actually haunt one until the end result appears.... thus going ahead, don't stop it... just do it... if it turn out not alright, at least you didn't get the suffer even before then end result is realised. or at least you suffer less than those that had been suffering before the event.
just another babbling :)
"the suffering from the fear of suffering is greater than from the suffering itself"
this is actually quite true..... let's think it this way, if there's a problem that u need to solve, but you know it's difficult and there might be chance that it will fail. failing the task will hurt urself emotionally and mentally. but..... if u're escaping, or even delaying... the problem still exists. the thing is that you know it exists, but you're not doing anything about it.... it actually stops u from going forward.... thus it's called the pain from the fear of suffering...
make it another scenario, if there's a girl that you potential will fall for her, but yet, you tell yourself that you're not ready for it.... but then... the emotion seems to push u towards the girl's direction and yet you don't know if things will turn out alright or not....that feeling is so bad and it actually haunt one until the end result appears.... thus going ahead, don't stop it... just do it... if it turn out not alright, at least you didn't get the suffer even before then end result is realised. or at least you suffer less than those that had been suffering before the event.
just another babbling :)
Thursday, June 26, 2008
here it comes again.....
it's been quite sometime i'm alone... doing things whatever i like... only think about work most of the time.... i guess i got nothing to loose other than my dream of building an empire with my product.
it's not that i was totally into work that i don't have socializing times... i go gym... i go diving... i go socializing... i do go out for some movies with friends.... at times, i do feel lonely.. at times.. i really feel like i want someone to love... to care... am i too free ? maybe :)
so long already... haven't really found anyone that really make me wonder if thing is gonna change.... once in a blue moon it does have the feeling from certain people... but then mostly won't last more than a day...
what am i talking .. nevermind...get back to work,.
it's not that i was totally into work that i don't have socializing times... i go gym... i go diving... i go socializing... i do go out for some movies with friends.... at times, i do feel lonely.. at times.. i really feel like i want someone to love... to care... am i too free ? maybe :)
so long already... haven't really found anyone that really make me wonder if thing is gonna change.... once in a blue moon it does have the feeling from certain people... but then mostly won't last more than a day...
what am i talking .. nevermind...get back to work,.
Jazz night getaway... in my room
this song i didn't realise i had the CD for quite some time... but there's another boring day that i go find some CDs to enjoy... and i found this song... very nice.. no idea who's the singer but it's from a cafe del mar compilation...
it's called someone like you...the lyrics is really really amazing...
I've been searching a long time
For someone exactly like you
I've been travelling all around the world
Waiting for you to come through.
Someone like you makes it all worth while
Someone like you keeps me satisfied.
someone exactly like you.
I've been travellin a hard road
Lookin for someone exactly like you
I've been carryin my heavy load
Waiting for the light to come shining through.
Someone like you makes it all worth while
Someone like you keeps me satisfied.
someone exactly like you.
I've been doin some soul searching
To find out where you're at
Ive been up and down the highway
In all kinds of foreign lands
Someone like you... etc.
I've been all around the world
Marching to the beat of a different drum.
But just lately I have realised
The best is yet to come.
Someone like you... etc.
it's called someone like you...the lyrics is really really amazing...
I've been searching a long time
For someone exactly like you
I've been travelling all around the world
Waiting for you to come through.
Someone like you makes it all worth while
Someone like you keeps me satisfied.
someone exactly like you.
I've been travellin a hard road
Lookin for someone exactly like you
I've been carryin my heavy load
Waiting for the light to come shining through.
Someone like you makes it all worth while
Someone like you keeps me satisfied.
someone exactly like you.
I've been doin some soul searching
To find out where you're at
Ive been up and down the highway
In all kinds of foreign lands
Someone like you... etc.
I've been all around the world
Marching to the beat of a different drum.
But just lately I have realised
The best is yet to come.
Someone like you... etc.
Tuesday, June 17, 2008
sick ??
sighs..... i think i'm gonna fall sick... finally.... been staying strong for a long long time... sick free days for like almost 2 years.... but then i think i'm gonna fall sick this time....
last night i felt seriously weak... skipped my usual gym training.... but i still slept quite late...and in the morning my throat hurts....a little bit light headed.....i guess i'm hit by heatiness..
last night i felt seriously weak... skipped my usual gym training.... but i still slept quite late...and in the morning my throat hurts....a little bit light headed.....i guess i'm hit by heatiness..
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