it's monday..... still chinese new year.... most of the guys out there already working... i'm still not working yet... i start work on the 6th day of Chinese new year.. basically wednesday.
interesting part is that... on the 2nd day evening i give it shot called her... wahhhh she picked up the phone.... but it's kinda short as usual.. she's gambling... and at that spark moment she got blackjack.... then i also dun wanna disturb too much.... probably people will think she's wierd not picking up phone...... then today.... she's not picking up already.. believe she had gone back to penang.... continued to ignore me.
my car engine blew.... the water coolant seal is gone... water going into the engine.... coming out from the exhaust.....and it wasn't supposed to be like that until another 2 years.... seems like mine have a pre-mature failure of the O rings..... my Apex seal didn't go... i still hear a very solid note from my exhaust.. but water is loosing.. coming out from my exhaust.... which is also a rebuild.......... this round never trust backyard technologies... i'll use back Mazda OEM or recomended by Japanese rebuilders.
Monday, February 11, 2008
Friday, February 8, 2008
2nd day of chinese new year
somehow, it's chinese new year again.. and this year chinese new year isn't like those in the past...
when i was small i used to be very happy during chinese new year... the crowd, the joy, the angpow, the firecrackers, everything seemed to be very fun and joyful and alive...but this year...it seemed to be so down...so quiet... so boring... i even heard people saying they hate chinese new year. they say also it's really boring.
for the pass 2 years, i was with Sweeney, now i mention her name... it was my most wonderful time ever so far i'm alive....previous post i was trying to hide her name and not to mention anything about the real person but somehow she doesn't really care nowadays. she doesn't respond to me, it's like totally disappeared from my life leaving all the memories behind.
yeah 2 years back i was with her going to her granny's place for chinese new year, or even going over to her place to hang out... play rummy etc... at least there are things to do.. this year i have really nothing left... nothing to do... nothing to play with... the roads are empty.. am i supposed to bring my car out for a spin to burn some petrols.... this chinese new year is just plain boring.... and it's the 2nd day only...
i really wished to go diving at tioman with 2 of my friends but unfortunately, if i'm the only one going, i'll be really like a lamp post, staying in the room myself... driving all the way to mersing myself... do i really need to be up to that extend?... and the 3rd day Bryan wants to do something.. he's starting to get bored as well i thinkkkk... the 4th day it's either go diving or go join Dennis an the group to get drunk in the middle of the afternoon visitting other car members...
back to basic... it's 2nd day and i'm really starting to feel really bored...if sweeney is still around with me, i would have gone to the granny's place... do some gambling, some eating... just sitting around with her is better than now doing nothing... rotting at home....
let's rot till tmrw........
when i was small i used to be very happy during chinese new year... the crowd, the joy, the angpow, the firecrackers, everything seemed to be very fun and joyful and alive...but this year...it seemed to be so down...so quiet... so boring... i even heard people saying they hate chinese new year. they say also it's really boring.
for the pass 2 years, i was with Sweeney, now i mention her name... it was my most wonderful time ever so far i'm alive....previous post i was trying to hide her name and not to mention anything about the real person but somehow she doesn't really care nowadays. she doesn't respond to me, it's like totally disappeared from my life leaving all the memories behind.
yeah 2 years back i was with her going to her granny's place for chinese new year, or even going over to her place to hang out... play rummy etc... at least there are things to do.. this year i have really nothing left... nothing to do... nothing to play with... the roads are empty.. am i supposed to bring my car out for a spin to burn some petrols.... this chinese new year is just plain boring.... and it's the 2nd day only...
i really wished to go diving at tioman with 2 of my friends but unfortunately, if i'm the only one going, i'll be really like a lamp post, staying in the room myself... driving all the way to mersing myself... do i really need to be up to that extend?... and the 3rd day Bryan wants to do something.. he's starting to get bored as well i thinkkkk... the 4th day it's either go diving or go join Dennis an the group to get drunk in the middle of the afternoon visitting other car members...
back to basic... it's 2nd day and i'm really starting to feel really bored...if sweeney is still around with me, i would have gone to the granny's place... do some gambling, some eating... just sitting around with her is better than now doing nothing... rotting at home....
let's rot till tmrw........
Wednesday, February 6, 2008
the day before chinese new year
so.. it's the day before chinese new year... i have no idea what to do yet... but i got an invitation to Pulau Tioman for a 2 days dive... interesting plan.. fits right in my very empty schedule.
ahahahah seems like i found my thing to kill my spare time....
i have a choice of going to track day on the sunday, going to Tioman to dive on sunday .. or going to visit a few friends from JSOC on sunday... hmmmmmmm which should i choose....
ahahahah seems like i found my thing to kill my spare time....
i have a choice of going to track day on the sunday, going to Tioman to dive on sunday .. or going to visit a few friends from JSOC on sunday... hmmmmmmm which should i choose....
Saturday, February 2, 2008
Tomorrow is my birthday.... what's the plan for me? i have seriously no idea.... no more "little" for me.... no one buying gift for me... probably just a couple of friends that's going out for a drink is gonna have some great time with me...
somehow, if she's still around me, i rather not to have some dark, noisy place, drinking sinful alcohol drinks that damages body and mind.... but now she's not here anymore, it will be better to do something instead of just staying alone....
staying alone in the room sucks to the max.... it makes people feel like there's nothing else in the world.... i have to go out... i have to go do something.....getting drunk, vomit the whole world, hang over... i hope not that extend... the next day i have a pool session of diving to try on new gears....i don't wanna sink to the bottom of the pool and ended up waking up in a hospital :)
just a couple of lamborghini on fire will do :)... have to be early else how in the world i can get home and sleep wake up at 9 AM next sunday morning... wahhhhhh pretty hectic.. luckly i'm not working on monday...
monday is shopping day for me..... time to get some clothes... thanks to my "little" that bought me Jaspal clothes.. they really look great.... somehow there's a shop in Pavillion that sells them... i may go in and check out if the design is okay or not... shopping day......
oh yeah.. did i mentioned i put in a bucket seat in my car..... everytime after driving it... got lower back ache.... it's pretty tough on the body.. but once u sat in... you'll be like wahhhhhhh it feels great... the handling feels great... i'm invisible... i'm fast.... i'm stable bwahahahahah
anyway... still considering the seat....
somehow, if she's still around me, i rather not to have some dark, noisy place, drinking sinful alcohol drinks that damages body and mind.... but now she's not here anymore, it will be better to do something instead of just staying alone....
staying alone in the room sucks to the max.... it makes people feel like there's nothing else in the world.... i have to go out... i have to go do something.....getting drunk, vomit the whole world, hang over... i hope not that extend... the next day i have a pool session of diving to try on new gears....i don't wanna sink to the bottom of the pool and ended up waking up in a hospital :)
just a couple of lamborghini on fire will do :)... have to be early else how in the world i can get home and sleep wake up at 9 AM next sunday morning... wahhhhhh pretty hectic.. luckly i'm not working on monday...
monday is shopping day for me..... time to get some clothes... thanks to my "little" that bought me Jaspal clothes.. they really look great.... somehow there's a shop in Pavillion that sells them... i may go in and check out if the design is okay or not... shopping day......
oh yeah.. did i mentioned i put in a bucket seat in my car..... everytime after driving it... got lower back ache.... it's pretty tough on the body.. but once u sat in... you'll be like wahhhhhhh it feels great... the handling feels great... i'm invisible... i'm fast.... i'm stable bwahahahahah
anyway... still considering the seat....
Wednesday, January 30, 2008
let go everything.......
我把自己关起来 只留下一个阳台 每当天黑推开城门 对着夜幕发呆看着往事 一幕一幕 再次演出你我的爱
我把电视机打开 听着别人的对白 也许那些故事 可以给我一个交代你要的爱 我学不来 眼睁睁看情变坏 人怔怔看情感慨
不能给你未来我还你现在 安静结束也是另一种对待当眼泪流下来 伤已超载 分开也是另一种明白我给你最后的疼爱 是手放开 不要一张双人床中间隔着一片海
感情的污点就留给时间慢慢漂白 把爱收进胸前左边口袋最后的疼爱 是手放开 不想用言语拉扯所以选择不责怪
感情就像候车月台 有人走 有人来 我的心是一个站牌 写着等待
我把收音机打开 听着别人的失败 哽咽的声音仿佛诉说着相同悲哀你的依赖 还在胸怀 我无法轻易推开 我无法随便走开感情中专心的人容易被伤害
Tuesday, January 15, 2008
orchestra night January 2008
on the 12th night of January 2008, it's the day that i meet her again. it is a friendly hang out. it's been 1 month plus since i last see her. and it's been 2 months since the break off...
the night of the orchestra is exceptionally beautiful. due to the reason that the attire must be lounge suit or batik, everyone is compulsory of dressing up for the night. the night's performance is Rachmaninov's Piano Concerto No.1.
this beautiful night, i wore the Jaspal Shirt she bought for me, the CK Pants she bought and my own CK beige jacket. wherelse she wore a classy black dress. it's been 1 month plus since i last see her, she became more and more beautiful. i'm not sure if it's i'm missing her badly or been some time since i last see her... but no matter what, she's always beautiful in my heart.
the dinner ended up at Ozeki, eating Kobe Beef, new style sushi, and etc.... she mentioned to me that she will really miss the time adventuring food with me... i know in my heart that she is going to miss me as well. but her decision she won't change... that night, she did it again calling me the way she call me all the time... the feeling is really rushing in again.. am i wrong for asking her out ? i don't know... but the feeling is really great.... the memories are too good to be forgotten.
the night really sparked my mind that it's impossible that i could forget her or just put those memories aside. i may always wander around the memories myself. i'm trying myself not to bug her.... live my life, miss her my own way... if there's anything could stop me from doing so, it's either i met another angel that ease my pain or she came back and ease my pain.... for this year i will concentrate on my career... in return i don't only hope for money.. money is most of the default return for working hard.. but what i really pray hard and hope for is i could see her smile again, turtle me in the morning, trying good food as we live and grow old.....
the night of the orchestra is exceptionally beautiful. due to the reason that the attire must be lounge suit or batik, everyone is compulsory of dressing up for the night. the night's performance is Rachmaninov's Piano Concerto No.1.
this beautiful night, i wore the Jaspal Shirt she bought for me, the CK Pants she bought and my own CK beige jacket. wherelse she wore a classy black dress. it's been 1 month plus since i last see her, she became more and more beautiful. i'm not sure if it's i'm missing her badly or been some time since i last see her... but no matter what, she's always beautiful in my heart.
the dinner ended up at Ozeki, eating Kobe Beef, new style sushi, and etc.... she mentioned to me that she will really miss the time adventuring food with me... i know in my heart that she is going to miss me as well. but her decision she won't change... that night, she did it again calling me the way she call me all the time... the feeling is really rushing in again.. am i wrong for asking her out ? i don't know... but the feeling is really great.... the memories are too good to be forgotten.
the night really sparked my mind that it's impossible that i could forget her or just put those memories aside. i may always wander around the memories myself. i'm trying myself not to bug her.... live my life, miss her my own way... if there's anything could stop me from doing so, it's either i met another angel that ease my pain or she came back and ease my pain.... for this year i will concentrate on my career... in return i don't only hope for money.. money is most of the default return for working hard.. but what i really pray hard and hope for is i could see her smile again, turtle me in the morning, trying good food as we live and grow old.....
Wednesday, January 9, 2008
New year trip
Fresh new 2008 year, time to really move on.... but although it's time to move on, yet it's not as easy as everyone says..... everyone will say time will heal everything.... how i wish i can forward wind the time.... until i heal it...
this actually reminds me of the movie "click". a guy that forward wind the life that he doesn't really like.... if i were to forward the healing time of mine, what will i miss ? possibly that i might miss someone next that might fill her space making me happy? miss some important time of my life? i guess i would just forget the idea of fast forwarding... must well just enjoy the healing time... heck.. it doesn't feel good at all the healing progress....infact it feels like shite....and i hate it...
anyway, it's new year yeah i went to Sipadan Island for my diving before it's destroyed by brainless politicians.... although certain part already destroyed when i think about it 2 years ago i went for the snorkling...
all i can say about the trip is magnificiently beautiful....if those who wonder how beautiful is beautiful.... there are a few things that u can do...
1) get open water license to dive
2) save money for the trip (quite alot)
3) plan way ahead with group
4) pray for the days u travel is red hot sunny day
5) enjoy.. take alot of photos
this actually reminds me of the movie "click". a guy that forward wind the life that he doesn't really like.... if i were to forward the healing time of mine, what will i miss ? possibly that i might miss someone next that might fill her space making me happy? miss some important time of my life? i guess i would just forget the idea of fast forwarding... must well just enjoy the healing time... heck.. it doesn't feel good at all the healing progress....infact it feels like shite....and i hate it...
anyway, it's new year yeah i went to Sipadan Island for my diving before it's destroyed by brainless politicians.... although certain part already destroyed when i think about it 2 years ago i went for the snorkling...
all i can say about the trip is magnificiently beautiful....if those who wonder how beautiful is beautiful.... there are a few things that u can do...
1) get open water license to dive
2) save money for the trip (quite alot)
3) plan way ahead with group
4) pray for the days u travel is red hot sunny day
5) enjoy.. take alot of photos
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