Merry Christmas

Merry Christmas to all everyone out there...
blink of an eye... it's christmas, and it's already 1 month after i broke off with her... why am i still blogging about my feelings ?? and especially my feelings towards her....

christmas is the time we used to enjoy... we went shopping mall spend 1 hour.... to buy the perfect gift for each other.. and come back meet at one point to exchange gift.... how sweet is it.... i really miss those times.....she got me a badminton racquet, i got her a doll dog that looked just like her dog.... that time she was depressed because the dog were sent for surgery... she was worried... when she opened the box, she was really happy.. that was the moment .... the moment of pure happiness....

sometimes i was thinking after broke off... how many actually made it become real good friends? i really think that when the moment relationship broke, the closeness between the couple should normally break... but if it's one sided break off, although saying that becoming close friends is possible.. but the side that didn't wantedthe break of is difficult to control themselves or take back the love that used to give out... in the end the one that called for breakoff is very easy.. as they don't need to do anything.. just forget everything... while the other side is struggling how to become close friends..... where sometimes you think of her as you still care.... but how much is too much ? how to become a close friend? especially my case.. ?

or maybe i'm giving out a little too much than so called close friend.... i guess i should pull back even more...as i reall cherish the friendship... but somehow asking myself.. if one day she called me and tells me that she wanted to get back... i really don't know.... if i should take it back or not.. while the other hand i'm really afraid of getting hurt same style again...

i'm confused again....i'm sad.... today is the day i decided to pull off further.... but can i do it ?...

上帝救救我。。。。。。这些感觉非常辛苦。。。非常不好受，已经一个月了，我还没有能够忘记我们美丽的回忆。