a brand new year

i just got a feeling like i drifted over the whole 2009 without any accomplishments.... feels like it's totally been wasted. nothing is changed and i still remained the same. i have no idea why, all i know is that i put my head down and started working... my days are just same old plain days.

and with just a blink of an eye, 2010 came. and it's already february. all i realise is that a series of unfortunate incident happens in my days of intense working days.... and also it's february, and i kinda felt that my whole january is wasted. nothing is being established, nothing new.... i just got a feeling that 2010 will be another drifting year for me.... at a blink of an eye, 2011 came... and that's the time i feel i'm ultra old... fucking 30 years old by next year....sighs...

i've been trying hard to establish things last year, my dreams, my goals, etc etc etc, but nothing is moving.... this year i try again.... i only hope that there are changes in days..... i need more changes.. more rewards of me putting down my head to work.....

let's welcome 2010... cross my fingers not yet another drifting year......