someone's birthday

it's end of september... the time my outlook page me there's a reminder... what reminder ? it's her birthday....
some might know who.. some might not.... the girl that's in the midsummer night feast.

it's been quite sometime already.... i'm just nothing more than a pest to her i guess... but i just don't understand why do i need to remember her birthday. actually not even her birthday.. just a range of dates i managed to figure out by piecing information together. yeap i did something this round. i wrote her 8 birthday card. just hopefully one of those card managed to hit her b'day on the spot :) yeah i'm stupid.... i guess... i couldn't be bothered anymore.. they are just cards... i know my odds....

well just leave it to fate. whatever it is that's coming.... only the hand that wrote our path of life knows... by listening to our heart, it will guide u to the direction we should be going. i guess it might be true.. i might meet someone in between... just follow my heart... but that didn't happen... what i earn from it is i managed to earn and know the exact day of her b'day. not a bad one afterall...

hope things turn out well..... no idea what's going on as well.

the old days

as you know i've posted alot of pictures in my facebook regarding my good old times... those carefree crazy days when i was in aussieland. we gamble for food, we drink like mad, we play football like there's no tmrw that need to wake up for class..... and we party real hard .... and eat alot.... cook rubbish...

but some old days reminds me of myself when i was in a mess..... mess as in.. when i was sad and down... especially when my relationship went down the drain.... the other day when i was clubbing in euphoria, i met a girl.... whatever she's doing whatever she's behaving... everything just look like myself when my relationship ended... no concentration, not enjoying, trying hard to
hide, but it just doesn't seem to hide easily. when riding with me, she requested a song to be repeated again and again.. that's how hurt she is... but a 2 months plus relationship ended can make a girl like that.... what's my damage for a 2.5 years of relationship....

whenever my testerone level is high, i have no worries about all these at all... i enjoy... i play... i rest... i chill....none of these stuff will come in and disturb my enjoyment... but at times.. i really wonder when is the one person that will walk in my life to accompany me when i enjoy, i play, i chill.....some day..... like someone always tells me... some day...when is the someday ??

brain dead day

okay... i'm brain dead... trying to push hard myself to get at least something to be done... i know why i'm brain dead... 2 nights in a row that i'm sleeping around 2 AM .. waking up around 9 AM... totally not enough....

that's for me making promises to friends that i'm coming out.. this round as i FFK them few times and if i dun FFK, i didn't drive my fun car out... finally they see me driving my car out again... and the end result... blardy tired... got home late...

and today is like floating to me.... the brain feels like it's so big.... so heavy...
and feel like drinking some coffee .... shit.. coffee again.. i had enough coffee already.. but doesn't help much.... die..

guess go home earlier today.. take a rest... and go yoga and relax myself.

clearer picture

echo from the below post... i've edited the picture with circle showing you all where are the boat and where's the DM with a tank of fuel...

Human saving boat

Live reporting from a stranded boat. Its been 3 hour plus since the boat stopped working. Your dive operator is actually delivering the petrol to our supposed to be a savior boat. They ran out of fuel. Must be the pork bun, its a story must tell. In the picture, the black dot, its our dive operator swimming towards the savior boat. What a black day.

Stranded again.

This is the previously stranded dive operator that i posted few months ago. This round same we're stranded. With different boat. But the worse situation is that we're in the middle of the sea. No where near any land. So unlucky as i'm now full tank. Don't know how to release and when only can release.