this early morning... i just recovered from a very tiring day yesterday travelling upside down from one corner to the other corner serving customers, meeting suppliers to find out what i can do for the coming days....
and although i just recovered, but this morning i wake up. i'm asking myself what am i chasing? i use up my energy, my brain juice, my time, yeah i get a good deal in business, i get alot of compensation in return for my success. but what is the end in mind?
am i assuming that i will succeed? that's why i'm moving on with my new target? or just merely money and project success ain't enough for me?
what am i chasing for ?
Thursday, November 27, 2008
Wednesday, November 26, 2008
ever more
the harder i work..
the more tired i get...
and the more tired i get...
the more i felt like i need someone to accompany me...
this is crap... make me feel so blardy weak whenever i stop working but yet a human's stamina is limited. can't be forever working..
just really need someone to help me recharge... just let me think of that someone will do...
who shall she be....
the more tired i get...
and the more tired i get...
the more i felt like i need someone to accompany me...
this is crap... make me feel so blardy weak whenever i stop working but yet a human's stamina is limited. can't be forever working..
just really need someone to help me recharge... just let me think of that someone will do...
who shall she be....
Sunday, November 23, 2008
compressed november
it's been quite sometime since i last blogged... yeah like the title.. comparessed november...which means my november barely allow me to breath through my days.
my previous post was training for a week.. that was part 1 of my training and just a blink of an eye... my 2nd part of my training is done as well.
somewhere at the end of october, i decided last minute that i have to go to Taiwan for my design review and alot of supplier visits and sourcings. so, from the day i paid my air ticket to the day i travel only 1 week for me to prepare everything.
10th of november i headed to Taiwan, yet again. this round i have to find my way down to Tainan as that's my 1st stop. 3 days in tainan, 2 days in taipei. very compressed trip. alot of supplier to visit, and daily is just eating and drinking. but after the drinking i still have to go back to my hotel and shower then continue with the design and next day to be reviewed by experienced manufacturers.
basically all my current suppliers were also saying that i planned my trip too tight and they wanted to spend some time bringing me around but yet i don't have the luxury. can u imagine when i was in taipei, i didn't get to step into a shopping mall at all...it was so hectic...
the reason is because when i returned from my trip, there's an important appointment at 5PM. so i can't delay my flight or add extra day. and following monday is my 2nd part of coaching training. and there goes another week... 1 week of travelling, 1 week of training.. i didn't get to rest at home... and the training is in a crappy hotel called Hotel De Palma in Ampang.
this is a place where i ate curry rice for 3 meals a day and 5 days straight down. terrible crap.... and the weekend is packed with gatherings... no voice for karaoke also... ahahahah
and then i'm busy preparing my car for the 30th november track event.... so compressed... so tiring.... tmrw my days will be back to normal...but i can expect the amount of things that i need to look into is pile up like mountain after 2 weeks of disappearance...
my previous post was training for a week.. that was part 1 of my training and just a blink of an eye... my 2nd part of my training is done as well.
somewhere at the end of october, i decided last minute that i have to go to Taiwan for my design review and alot of supplier visits and sourcings. so, from the day i paid my air ticket to the day i travel only 1 week for me to prepare everything.
10th of november i headed to Taiwan, yet again. this round i have to find my way down to Tainan as that's my 1st stop. 3 days in tainan, 2 days in taipei. very compressed trip. alot of supplier to visit, and daily is just eating and drinking. but after the drinking i still have to go back to my hotel and shower then continue with the design and next day to be reviewed by experienced manufacturers.
basically all my current suppliers were also saying that i planned my trip too tight and they wanted to spend some time bringing me around but yet i don't have the luxury. can u imagine when i was in taipei, i didn't get to step into a shopping mall at all...it was so hectic...
the reason is because when i returned from my trip, there's an important appointment at 5PM. so i can't delay my flight or add extra day. and following monday is my 2nd part of coaching training. and there goes another week... 1 week of travelling, 1 week of training.. i didn't get to rest at home... and the training is in a crappy hotel called Hotel De Palma in Ampang.
this is a place where i ate curry rice for 3 meals a day and 5 days straight down. terrible crap.... and the weekend is packed with gatherings... no voice for karaoke also... ahahahah
and then i'm busy preparing my car for the 30th november track event.... so compressed... so tiring.... tmrw my days will be back to normal...but i can expect the amount of things that i need to look into is pile up like mountain after 2 weeks of disappearance...
Monday, October 20, 2008
training done
for the past 1 whole week, i was in a training. a training that train coaches, qualify coaches. the main purpose of the training, i have no idea. someone just put my name there and ask me to attend. since it's paid for, i just went for it.
yes i get to stay in The Mines Hotel for 1 whole week there. all by myself in my own room with a freakin huge bed. it's not that my home i don't have all those, but just that this one week is the time i have my own privacy.... no one to nag, no one to question what i do etc etc etc.... i chill in the room, sleep early, go out come back late, no one cares..
the best thing is that, yes i do learn something new from the training. although most of it i learn from those times when i was in intel. but this one is developed by german. no one in the world had used the method of coaching before. but german people are the one that has been using that and proven success. and malaysia had started to use it.
another good thing is that, during the whole week. yeah.. get to know multiple friends from multiple industry, mainly from the beauty industry. and a certain older dudes from same industry. so it's really interesting. i even met someone that's from a very very odd industry considering she's a girl and she's not really old nor wierd looking. yeah an industry dealing with the deceased. 1st impression... scarry... geli... wierd.... all sort of mixed feelings. but then after couple of days talking to her, hanging out and such... interestingly... i can accept that :) it's just a profession afterall... nice person to talk to. but a person that has problems in her mind that at times need some wise people's guidance. but she tend to think, it's okay one she'll make it through that sort of simply move forward style without much considering and planning.
and now... i'm back to my own life. back to my job that's headache thinking how to proceed with my production while the oil supplier delayed my shipment of oils... my production had stopped for at least 3 weeks. really pain in the ass.
yes i get to stay in The Mines Hotel for 1 whole week there. all by myself in my own room with a freakin huge bed. it's not that my home i don't have all those, but just that this one week is the time i have my own privacy.... no one to nag, no one to question what i do etc etc etc.... i chill in the room, sleep early, go out come back late, no one cares..
the best thing is that, yes i do learn something new from the training. although most of it i learn from those times when i was in intel. but this one is developed by german. no one in the world had used the method of coaching before. but german people are the one that has been using that and proven success. and malaysia had started to use it.
another good thing is that, during the whole week. yeah.. get to know multiple friends from multiple industry, mainly from the beauty industry. and a certain older dudes from same industry. so it's really interesting. i even met someone that's from a very very odd industry considering she's a girl and she's not really old nor wierd looking. yeah an industry dealing with the deceased. 1st impression... scarry... geli... wierd.... all sort of mixed feelings. but then after couple of days talking to her, hanging out and such... interestingly... i can accept that :) it's just a profession afterall... nice person to talk to. but a person that has problems in her mind that at times need some wise people's guidance. but she tend to think, it's okay one she'll make it through that sort of simply move forward style without much considering and planning.
and now... i'm back to my own life. back to my job that's headache thinking how to proceed with my production while the oil supplier delayed my shipment of oils... my production had stopped for at least 3 weeks. really pain in the ass.
Monday, October 6, 2008
taste of the past
last week... it's raya week. yes we do have quite alot of holidays. this round the holiday seem to be 5 days long.
mine wasn't that long. just 2 days for me... i have to work actually on friday and saturday.
the other more interesting part is that my parents aren't around. they had gone to sydney to my sister's graduation ceremony. be back only like 8 days later... they left KL since monday evening.
so leaving me, my brother, the maid and the house.... so.. it's totally mayhem but yet freedom.... so.. without parents around.. very normal where all of me and my brother will be disppearing.... gone out with frens, come back late...
for me... this week is a week that full of spices.... happy, disappointed, tired, gladful... etc etc etc.... i went for alot of group gatherings, playing with dogs, fun drive around places, clubbings, BBQ, parties... yum cha.... and movies... so many things
everynight also got home around 12 or at times got home around 2 AM...
luckly i was fit enough to deal with these kind of lifestyle as i've gained alot of health during my months and months of training in the gym.... some describe me as social butterfly.... :) alot of things happening in this week.
i name this post as taste of past is because i used to stay alone while i'm working in penang. so i used to have alot of freedom.. back in those days... i didn't have that much of activities.. but mostly at home resting watching some show, cleaning up... ironing clothes... i supposed to be playing my piano over the holidays to relax and chill myself.. but that didn't happen... too many plans.... so little time at home... no one to blame.. but myself... i can't stay still nowadays... not this week. maybe some other times.
and the freedom week is going to end... parents coming back.... back to the days where people will ask where are u goin out... what time coming back.... and nagging here and there.
mine wasn't that long. just 2 days for me... i have to work actually on friday and saturday.
the other more interesting part is that my parents aren't around. they had gone to sydney to my sister's graduation ceremony. be back only like 8 days later... they left KL since monday evening.
so leaving me, my brother, the maid and the house.... so.. it's totally mayhem but yet freedom.... so.. without parents around.. very normal where all of me and my brother will be disppearing.... gone out with frens, come back late...
for me... this week is a week that full of spices.... happy, disappointed, tired, gladful... etc etc etc.... i went for alot of group gatherings, playing with dogs, fun drive around places, clubbings, BBQ, parties... yum cha.... and movies... so many things
everynight also got home around 12 or at times got home around 2 AM...
luckly i was fit enough to deal with these kind of lifestyle as i've gained alot of health during my months and months of training in the gym.... some describe me as social butterfly.... :) alot of things happening in this week.
i name this post as taste of past is because i used to stay alone while i'm working in penang. so i used to have alot of freedom.. back in those days... i didn't have that much of activities.. but mostly at home resting watching some show, cleaning up... ironing clothes... i supposed to be playing my piano over the holidays to relax and chill myself.. but that didn't happen... too many plans.... so little time at home... no one to blame.. but myself... i can't stay still nowadays... not this week. maybe some other times.
and the freedom week is going to end... parents coming back.... back to the days where people will ask where are u goin out... what time coming back.... and nagging here and there.
Saturday, October 4, 2008
Friday, October 3, 2008
i've been meme-ed ?
The rules and instructions as below:
The ones who got meme-ed must complete the survey,then take out a question that you dislike most and add another question, so it remains as 20 questions.
Tag 5 other people, and list out their names.
And you need to leave a message at their blogs telling them they got meme-ed!
These 5 people have to say where they received the meme, and tag 5 other people, and pass it around without returning.
The ones who got tagged will get everyone's blessing, and all wonderful dreams will come true in near future...
Get ready to read all my answers? Here we go....
What are your goals/dreams?
Steady life with good reputation on what i do at work. of course steady life = hefty income that doesn't bother how i spend. just more than comfortable is enough
The happiest thing in your life?
when i find my destined fate that will accompany me till the day i close my eyes.
Favorite color?
red
What would you do if you have a million dollars?
a million dollar is too little. i'll double or tripple the million dollar with business plans before spending on houses and cars and travel plans.
Where do you wish to go the most? Why?
no particular place to go, because i know one of the days i'll be successful enough to go whever places i want with my love ones. unrealisticly now will be going to the moon and back, just been thinking how long i'll live until the technology is available to do such travel for consumers.
What is your weakness that you can’t stand the most?
meeting someone that will make me loose my coolness. make me look so dumb infront of her.
What will you do if you face something sad?
take my car out... drive it around.... go somewhere quiet... listen to musics.... and look at the stars...
or just stay in the room and listen to musics and grab some drinks.
Most afraid to lose…?
myself
What is the practical target within this 5 years?
to have a reputation of building one of the best suspension in the local market. export more to overseas.
survive all the financial crisis that will be coming soon. if possible find my destined soulmate so that i could be at my 100% with the motivation.
Ask yourself, do you like yourself?
i love myself :) you can't start loving others when you don't like yourself. but there are things around or there are incidents happening to me that i don't like....
Favorite Song?
jazz musics....
What weird things that you wish to happen?
duty free importing of anything from everywhere of the world
What age do you wish to live until?
At least 70 and at most 80.
You hate which type of people the most?
they think they are too smart
Are you satisfied with your life?
not now.
What do you wish to do the most now?
to know someone from my below blog even more detailed.
What do you think will make you think that the human nature is dark?
World War.
If you are in deepest depression, who will you look for?
friends or lover (if i can have one)
A present that you wish to get from your lover.
her unconditioned love (if i have a lover)
And my question is.....
Animal/Insect you scared the most?
nothing
The ones who got meme-ed must complete the survey,then take out a question that you dislike most and add another question, so it remains as 20 questions.
Tag 5 other people, and list out their names.
And you need to leave a message at their blogs telling them they got meme-ed!
These 5 people have to say where they received the meme, and tag 5 other people, and pass it around without returning.
The ones who got tagged will get everyone's blessing, and all wonderful dreams will come true in near future...
Get ready to read all my answers? Here we go....
What are your goals/dreams?
Steady life with good reputation on what i do at work. of course steady life = hefty income that doesn't bother how i spend. just more than comfortable is enough
The happiest thing in your life?
when i find my destined fate that will accompany me till the day i close my eyes.
Favorite color?
red
What would you do if you have a million dollars?
a million dollar is too little. i'll double or tripple the million dollar with business plans before spending on houses and cars and travel plans.
Where do you wish to go the most? Why?
no particular place to go, because i know one of the days i'll be successful enough to go whever places i want with my love ones. unrealisticly now will be going to the moon and back, just been thinking how long i'll live until the technology is available to do such travel for consumers.
What is your weakness that you can’t stand the most?
meeting someone that will make me loose my coolness. make me look so dumb infront of her.
What will you do if you face something sad?
take my car out... drive it around.... go somewhere quiet... listen to musics.... and look at the stars...
or just stay in the room and listen to musics and grab some drinks.
Most afraid to lose…?
myself
What is the practical target within this 5 years?
to have a reputation of building one of the best suspension in the local market. export more to overseas.
survive all the financial crisis that will be coming soon. if possible find my destined soulmate so that i could be at my 100% with the motivation.
Ask yourself, do you like yourself?
i love myself :) you can't start loving others when you don't like yourself. but there are things around or there are incidents happening to me that i don't like....
Favorite Song?
jazz musics....
What weird things that you wish to happen?
duty free importing of anything from everywhere of the world
What age do you wish to live until?
At least 70 and at most 80.
You hate which type of people the most?
they think they are too smart
Are you satisfied with your life?
not now.
What do you wish to do the most now?
to know someone from my below blog even more detailed.
What do you think will make you think that the human nature is dark?
World War.
If you are in deepest depression, who will you look for?
friends or lover (if i can have one)
A present that you wish to get from your lover.
her unconditioned love (if i have a lover)
And my question is.....
Animal/Insect you scared the most?
nothing
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