what sign i should date ?

recently i took the test.... i'm an aquarius and my result as below.

You should date a Taurus, Virgo, or Capricorn. If you're looking for a hard-working, dependable, and loyal lover, then look no further than an Earth sign! Don't mistake this introvert as someone who isn't social because they have quite the charm.

seriously quite true....that's someone that i might be looking for.... someone not too crazy in life, someone smart, someone loyal...there are certain degree of sociable as well as i do :)

just babble.....

my daily life

today i was thinking what do i do daily?....
Monday.... work then gym... then get tired and rest at night
Tuesday.... work then bowling... then get tired and rest at night again sometimes replace the bowling with some business social activity with the beers...
wednesday.... work then gym... then get tired and rest at night...
thursday... work then rest.. then take a dry swim aka stacking tiles with my diving buddies... then get real tired and rest at night....
friday... work.. then yoga session..... then at times.... JSOC meet up.. and get crazy till late night....
saturday.... start work late.... finish around 6...

and that's the time when the most difficult part of the week comes.... i don't have anything fixed on saturday and sundays..... basically at a certain point of time.... i don't like weekends.... because i don't have any partner to spend time with, i don't know where to go, i don't know what to do.

my weekends... take out some books to read... less than 2 hour... got bored... and head to play piano for awhile.... and got bored in less than 1 hour.... and watched TV... and go back to sleep... then wake up.... at times... go super market and buy some ingredients to try out.... mess up the kitchen....

saturdays and sundays are really not a good day for me.. when people tell me have a good weekend.... i was wishing if my weekends i can spend time with someone....get to understand someone... more...it's tough to get back into the sort of life...

it's been awhile

it's been awhile since i last got feelings towards someone. and the effect is.... messy.... behaving wierd, or something don't know what to do.

argh... i tot i was strong in every term of life... but then when it comes to these... weak beyond words....

somesay... i shall just go with the flow... and don't expect too much.... so that i don't get disappointed.... i think it's correct....i should be having that kind of mindset....

a sweet dream had ended

11th of July 2008, a midsummer night feast opening gala at starhill, that's the sweet dream that i've been talking about. why is it a sweet dream? it's just a publicity event.

the highlight of the night wasn't just the food, it was the combination of perfect date, perfect food, perfect performance. the event was so formal that there are so many press were taking photos here and there. my date the night, she is the most beautiful girl that i've ever seen. we actually draws quite some attention for photographers, me and my date coincidently wore all white. .we were the only couple that wear all white, the rest are dark color, black color etc.

the night went on really well. good chat, good food, good music.... i should stress out that the company of her is seriously nothing can be match.

why do i call it a sweet dream? just imagine you have the most beautiful girl you've ever known to be your date for the night, and both wear some matching clothes to the event. but my guts tells me already she's taken. but by accepting my invitation i'm filtering alot of facts. thus it's like a dream..you set your own scenario.

luckly the night went out smoothly, as an addition she got a dozen of rose from me. everything was SO PERFECT for the night. but then.... a sweet dream eventually ended. although i would like an extension... but sometimes those guys up there are pretty fair to everyone... not one gets extra...

i already had an extra for dreaming on the night itself while i'm trying to sleep. i had a dream about her. pieces of good moments as i'm going after her. and at the end of the dream, i melted her heart with sincerity and care. and that's the extra dream that i got. this is seriously the best back to back sweet dream ever happen to me in my life. guess it might be time to get back to my ownself. we'll see how it goes.... some how i need some luck as well...

my sweet dream

i think i'm currently living in a sweet dream....why do i say i'm in my own sweet dream ? because normally at night.. when you got a dream at night, normally you can't control your dream. it'll flow accordingly.

but in one of my post i mentioned the dream life.... living in a dream life, you pre-set your own conditions, your own situation. at the moment, i'm in a dream. that's for following my heart doing things that are unexplainable like waiting for someone in the middle of the night.

i will continue to live in this sweet dream, regardless what's the realistic situation out there. while i'm waiting for that someone, i don't really care if the condition is in favor of me or not. like i said this might be a dream for me, i shall take it as a dream. i set my the situation, and i walk in my dreams.... maybe someday i will wake up.... knowing that it's just a dream that's the time where the reality is overpowering my pre-set situation. and i shall wake up... and it will be a great dream to remember. maybe a short one as well.

if my pre-set situation continues without the reality over powering, or let's say the reality has nothing to interfere my sweet dream, i shall continue to dream. never know one day, the dream became a reality and i don't need to dream anymore. and by that time, my dream is my life and it's the reality that i'm a happy man once again.

a sweet dream hasn't ended yet.

am i stupid ? or i'm a rare breed of a kind...

somehow i believe i'm a kind of person that's stupid... as in... not to say that i'm not intelligent or i'm not smart..... how smart am i... definitely IQ higher than typical people bwahahhaha

but now how i believe my innerself is quite deep. i can't express alot at times... tend to keep to myself, thus i started blogging... throwing out my thoughts... it felt a little better....

i say i'm funny as in... when i do something... there isn't much reasoning behind.. i realised it now... yeah u treat a gf nice... that's normal.. and that's infact a must... then why get a gf if you don't treat them well.... but somehow... even someone is not my gf, i tend to be happy when i get to treat them well.... i kinda get a good satisfaction feeling when i care for someone..... i get satisfied mentally when i get to accompany someone go through hard times.... i can stay up all night long to accompany someone work.... hypothetically staying up to accompany someone that has a long night to go through.

especially my best female fren always tells me... whoever that got attached with me...she's seriously lucky... probably my fate hasn't arrive yet.... still wondering somewhere outside.... some day.... some day..... i will have my happiness back again....but somehow... never try never know....i shall follow my heart..... although my heart always lead me to do something stupid that's in-explainable... only wished that my heart will show me the route that i have to walk.... things happen for a reason... if the heart wants me to get disappointed again... no choice... be it...
i'll continue to follow my heart in search of my happiness...

dreams.....

dream is a very important thing for a person.... a dream is not actually something that comes at night... they have day dreaming.... night dreaming.... and they have a vision dreaming....

dream is not actually something that it won't happen... it's something that hint you about a thing in life that's going to happen... there exist a dream decipher that tells what those those dream is about....

i have a dream... it's not something that comes at night..... it's not something that show up in my mind without myself noticing it... my dream is something i wanted my life to happen.... my dream is related to my life..... i dream of a someone that will be a very good company to me... as that someone is really worth me sacrificing for.... someone that won't stop their man as he go searches his destiny... that is what a true love is .....